The Woman, The Dreams and The Moon

Epilogue, Part 3: Lucy

I was born with an identity which I don't own. The memories in my mind are not from my experiences. I live a life that is not mine. I really don't know who I am. Growing up is such a pain for me since I felt like I am living in someone else's memories and dreams. I searched for a longtime to be belong and to have something I can call my own but I found nothing. I almost gave up and surrendered to the idea that I am nothing and I am worthless but when I met Ms.Vera in the mirror dimension, a spark of hope flamed in my soul. It took years for me to be aware of my purpose but when that moment arrived, I can't describe how joyous it was. Tila ba lahat ng pagdududa mo sa sarili mo at ang pakiramdam na wala kang halaga, it all come to pass. Nawala ng parang bula. My eyes see through her and I knew that my dreams and memories belong to her. I saw my purpose right before my eyes.

I am travelling through dreams every night since I discovered my power. All the dreams I went were all the same but not to Ms. Vera. Instead of seeing beautiful or terrible scenarios, Ms. Vera's dreams was a void space. You cannot find anything there. It is the evidence that her memories were stolen from her. The moment I met her, I knew immediately that she is the one I kept seeing in my dreams. She is my memories. When I returned home, I consulted my parents about me for the first time. Seeing Ms. Vera gave me courage to finally step up and to take hold of my identity and purpose. I asked my parents kung paano nangyari na ang mga panaginip at nakaraan ng isang tao ay tila nakakulong sa aking isipan. At first, they were startled but they knew that they should finally confess everything. Magkakahalong emosyon ang naramdaman ko ng mga panahong ito. Galit dahil ilang taon kong pinaniwala ang sarili ko na I am the woman in my dreams kahit na alam kong hindi ako yun. Feeling ko nanakaw ang ilang taon ng buhay ko for searching the perfect reasons to satisfy my longing heart. Saya, dahil sa wakas, I can start new dreams and memories that I can treasure as my own. But at the end of the conversation, my heart decided to feel love and understanding. Indeed, love cover multitude of wrongs.

My parents admitted their shortcomings and ask for my forgiveness. Who I am to be stone hearted? After learning my parents reason, I just felt grateful that I became a part of something great. Kasama ang parents ko when La Unidad came to the Ka-Ila-An tribe. Fortunately, they are both able to escape the ambush. Sa kanila pinagkatiwala ang cursed jar kung saan nakalagay ang mga memories in Ms. Vera. At first, they don't know what to do about it but they cannot keep it because the other dream weavers and dream walkers can detect it. My kuya, was still a toddler that time but his power was already manifesting. My parents are both dream walkers and they cannot undo what a dream weaver had done. My kuya is a dream weaver. Alam na nila mommy at daddy na kakaiba ang kakayahan ni kuya.

My parents travelled to my kuya's dreams and contacted his future self. Hindi ito alam kuya. Probably, he doesn't remember anything about it yet. Marahil, hindi pa narereach ni kuya yung age niya when my parents contacted him. Hindi ko rin alam na as dream walkers, kaya namin makipagcommunicate from our past and future selves. How interesting! Then, my kuya, opened the jar and weaved Ms. Vera's memories to the child inside my mom's belly. Yes, I am still an embryo that time but kuya, was able to transfer the memories in me. The reason why my parents didn't took time to tell me about all of this ay dahil sa kadahilanang, ayaw nilang makimeddle sa daloy ng tadhana. They trust the process. They knew that a moment will arrived where everything will fall into its right places. Well, I guess, they had chosen the correct choice. I wish that I should had learned this principle sooner. Trusting the process must always be in our hearts. The process might brought us pain and hardships but time will come, all your labor will have its fruits. You will reap whatever you sow.

Kuya Angelo's power laid dormant within his younger years maybe because of what my parents had done but when his power decided to manifest, I am so happy for him. Ramdam ko ang kapangyarihan ni kuya. He is stronger than me. That time when we travelled in the past using his abilities, I can't confine my amusement. Fast forward! The night of our abduction was a surprise but when we arrived to Benguet, I am not scared at all. Handa ako kahit hindi ko alam ang mga pwedeng mangyari. When Ms. Vera fell asleep in Sir John's shoulders, nireveal sa amin ni Sir John ang plano niya. We need to protect Ms. Vera at all cost. She is my purpose and I had to give everything to protect her. I knew also that La Unidad will arrive. Kuya shared his vision to us. Aaminin ko, it gave me chills but I knew for a fact na wala ng atrasan ito. It is either we survive this or not, but one thing is for sure, Ms. Vera should be kept alive.

I can't describe how glorious she was that night. Her whole body was glowing with power. Siguro, hindi niya nakikita but, we definitely saw her shining. She shone the brightest that night. Maraming nangyari ng gabing iyon, we lost Sir John and Luna at the same time. Kahit ngayon, I can't believe that Luna was defeated. Well, I knew her before I met Ms. Vera. She visited me many times and di ba nga, my eyes can see what others cannot see. Luna is powerful more than what you imagine. Kaya di ko sure kung bakit siya nadefeat nung gabing yon.

Ang bilis ng panahon. Time flew like a wind. Five years had already passed and I can say that everything fell on its right places. We are celebrating tonight with music and lights. When the night reached its peak, dumagundong ang kidlat at kulog sa buong kalangitaan. My heart was filled with fear. I felt like we are going to face something terrible than before. Mukhang may digmaang paparating. My kuya screamed many times. I knew that he is seeing a vision. Lumapit kami ni Ms. Vera sa kanya. His eyes turned silver. I look at him and I saw through him. I saw Luna and some other things that are still unclear. One thing that I saw clearly.

Bakit magkasama si Luna at Sir John? Nasaan sila?