The Heartbeat of Sky

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"Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Ninoy Aquino International Airport. Local time is 9:00 in the evening and the temperature is 37º Celcius...." naagaw ang pansin ko sa muling aanouncement. Muli ay bumalik ako sa aking sarili. Enough of the memories Millie.

Hearing his name caused pain to me. Maraming taon man ang lumipas. He has a big part of my life at ang pagkawala nito sa akin ay may malaking epekto. Alam ko na kahit mag-isa lamang ako ay naging parte sya ng lahat ng tagumpay ko. I'll start to forget him, nilibang ko ang sarili ko at sinanay ito na wala sa tabi ko. I'm completely heal. On my own. On my own pace and time. Pero iba pa rin ang epekto na makita ko siya ng malapitan at marinig muli ang boses nito.

Agad akong nagmadali para makaalis na sa eroplano. I can't handle another confrontation with him. Maybe not now, maybe some other time. Some of the attendant's bid goobye and thank me one last time. Ngumiti lamang ako at madaling umalis roon.

Pagkalabas ko ng gate ay nakita ko agad ang tatlo kong kaibigan. Seth was there too. May hawak itong maliit na papel na may nakasulat na... "Welcome back Doc!" I ran into them and hugged them. I missed them so much. 3 months in Boston is no joke. I attended some alumni meetings and greeting in Harvard. 2 months lamang iyon pero nagstay pa ako ng 1 buwan.

My mental health is not that stable. So I decided to breathe fresh air and meet new people. Mabuti at naintindihan din naman iyon ng hospital na pinagtatrabahuhan ko.

Sa loob ng 7 taon ay pag-aaral at pamilya lamang ang inuna ko. My friends remain understanding on my situation. I'm still lucky how they remain loyal to me. Sa dami ng mga nangyari ay pwedeng pwede nila akong talikuran pero hindi nila iyon ginawa.

Seth and I both graduated Cum Laude in med school. Passed the board exam together. We stick together. Naghiwalay lamang dahil sa Harvard na ako nagpatuloy recidency training ko.

One time, he confessed to me. It was during our lowest moment in med school. He said he felt that it was the right moment. I can't blame him, we are always together, we are the perfect duo back then. He always lifts my head and said it was going to be okay. Bukas ay panibagong araw at may pang kakataon pa ring bumawi. Some of the students taught we are in a relationship.

At that moment I don't know how to react. I search for the same feeling when someone confessed to me. Pero hindi ko naramdaman iyon. Instead, it was a new feeling. A strange one at alam ko na agad kung ano iyon.

"Don't worry. Hindi mo naman kailangang sumagot. I understand how your last relationship mean to you at ayokong makipagkompetensya roon. No pressure, Millie. But I want you to understand that I will not give up. I will wait for my chance.. "

I thought it will affect our relationship. Pero mas lalo lamang noong napatibay ang aming pagkakaibigan.

"Namiss ka namin Millie! You look fresh and happy. Hays. I want to take a vacation na rin sa Boston," Lou dramatically said.

"You've been there na Lou. Lahat na nga ata ay napuntahan mo. Duh. FA ka girl.." inirapan kaagad ito ni Max.