His Girl

chapter 70

James
Morning soon came and I looked down at Harper, she was still curled up in my chest. Her words last night still played on my mind....she felt safe with me. It was the best feeling knowing she trusted me, she felt safe. I had been awful at times with her and she still felt safe.
"Oh my god its morning" I look back down at Harper, shes no longer asleep instead she is wide awake looking at me with excitement.  What was she so happy about, it cant be because I'm here. Damn we're only in the same bed because of the storm, hopefully there is another one tonight.
"Good morning to you too" I say and she hugs me, why was she hugging me.
"Jameeees" she squeals.
What the hell was going on.
"Why are you so excited" I ask, a part of me hoping her memories had come back.
"You said we could go to that town today, wait can we still go" she replies and I smile. "Yes of course but breakfast first" I tell her and she nods excitedly unlike previous times i dont get annoyed with it, instead i tighten the hug we were still in "let's get breakfast" she says trying to get out of my hold. "5 more minutes" I say and lay back down, still holding her. Truth was I was doing this to annoy her a little and I enjoyed holding her.
"nooooo" she whined and I laughed at her childish tone. "Stop laughing" she gives me a playful glare and it's only at that moment I realize how close our faces are. She must have realized too as we both just look at each other.
It was tempting to kiss her and I couldnt help myself,  I leaned forward.  The last minute I backed out, being afraid of what this would do to us, I kissed her forehead instead.
"Let's go get breakfast, you can go get ready I'll make a start on breakfast" I tell her slowly letting go of her. That was probably the last time we would be that close
She practically ran out of the room when I let go. I sighed, I used to give her forehead kisses when we were friends, maybe now I cant even do that.
I quickly do my morning routine and dress in casual clothes for a change, well semi casual
After changing I went and made breakfast deciding on something simple I began to cook.

Meanwhile

Harper

I ran out the room, I couldnt help but feel disappointed,  did I want him to actually kiss me?
Yes
Damn this was bad, I had a crush on him. He probably thinks I'm insane already. Ugh why couldnt I just see him as a friend. Last night was one of the best sleeps I've had in a while, I wanted to be in his arms every night but I knew the only reason he allowed me was because he knew I was afraid of the storms and I had a memory return. At this thought I shuddered, the memory was painful and as I thought about it the details became more clear. Tears fell down my face, I was so young when it happened.  Did I really want to find out my past? Maybe we shouldnt go to this town.
I try to shake the feeling off by showering, that just made it worse and I jumped out, as soon as the water hit me all I could think of was rain. The rain that repeatedly hit me that night. I got changed fast and decided to make a slight bit of effort, I chose a sleeveless top and some shorts. I put my hair up in a quick messy bun as any effort I had vanished. I had to put on a brave face and head downstairs.

James
I played up breakfast and set it on the island counter, I was about to go get Harper but she walked in. I looked her up and down and damn, I dont think she realizes how beautiful she is. I feel my pants tighten just looking at her.
Well shit.
She looked at me, she didnt even notice the buldge that appeared,  I don't think she ever does but then again I fo a pretty good job of hiding it. For example a cushion is very useful, no I dont walk round with a cushion in front of me but when we watch films I usually have one rested over me.
Fuck. She is coming towards me. Oh god, this is going to be embarrassing.
Wait. She has tears in her eyes. Fuck. Without caring that she will notice, I pull her into a hug.  She cried against me and that made me hold her tighter as I let her cry it out.
I couldnt help but feel even more shit when I thought back to the time I had just met her, I gave her a stupid rule, no crying in front of me. How fucked up was I. I had my reasons and they were all good reasons but still I shouldn't have done it. It's funny how things turn out, I tell her she cant cry in front of me and yet I love holding her in my arms, being the one she seeks comfort from, I hated seeing her like this and would do anything to cheer her up but right now I could tell she needed to cry.
After a while she stopped, her red puffy eyes looked up at me and I smiled and held her tighter letting her know I wadny going away. "Are all my memories as bad as the storm one" she asked.
Fuck.
"We have some good memories together" I say hoping it helps the situation.
"And what about before i met you, are they all bad" she asks.
"From what I know, yes" I couldnt lie to her especially if she is starting to remember.
"I..I dont think I want to know my memories" she says, I couldnt blame her, she had such a fucked up life.