Rollercoaster

Birthday?

February 1st, 2020

F I N O L A

"No fuck you, Finny." Buck yelled one my face, spitting on me in the process. "You're such a bitch, I wish you died on that roller coaster."

I looked at him in pure terror, I've never seen him like this. He portrays himself as such a nice guy, genuinely caring about the feelings of the people he loves. But I guess that was just a cover up for the type of man he truly is.

"Buck please stop yelling," I said, trying to de-escalate the situation. "I didn't do anything wrong."

"Oh that's what you always say," he yells, grabbing a vase from the table by our bed. "You always think you're so innocent, but in reality you cause all of the problems we have in this relationship."

He threw the vase at me at full force, and I fell to the ground holding my bleeding face in my hands. When I looked up at him in fear, I noticed his facial expression had changed.

"Finn wake up," he came up to me, rubbing my arm. I tried backing away but he started shaking my shoulders. "Wake up, we have a surprise for you."

I jolted up in my bed, completely drenched in sweat. I look up at him and push myself as far away as I can.

"Baby, what's wrong?" He worriedly asked.

"No don't touch me." I shoved him off of our bed, not knowing what else to do.

It felt so real. I've never had a nightmare that felt this close to reality. Deep down I know that Buck would never hurt me like that, but there will always be a part of me that is terrified of men. I could feel the tears burning my eyes, threatening to fall down my face.

"I'm sorry." I sobbed, grabbing a pillow and shoving my face into it. I hate that Buck has to see me like this so often. I'm always the one crying, I'm always the one who has issues. "I had a nightmare and it just felt so real."

"Don't apologize." He sat on the bed and pulled me into his chest. "Do you want to talk about it?"

I nod into his chest, sniffling as I pulled away from him. "You were acting just like Ryan, and you threw a vase at my face. I know you would never do that to me, it just felt so real. I thought it was real."

I've been getting nightmares pretty much every night since I got out of the hospital, but this one was the worst I've had in a really long time.

"I would never hurt you Finn," he said with tears in his eyes. "I love you so so much I hope you know that."

"I love you too." I wiped the tears from my face, and leaned up to kiss him.

I love him so much.

B U C K

I wish I knew a better way to help her through this. I just hope she knows that I would never hurt her like he did. I remember when Maddie was with her ex husband, who doesn't even deserve to be in my mind right now, she would come over to my apartment and try to pretend that everything was okay. But I saw right through her fake smile. I always did my best to help her, I even let her stay at my place for two months. I took care of her when she didn't think anyone cared, I made sure she knew she was loved. I'm going to do the same for Finola.

Right now, Finn is getting ready in our room. And then we're going to all celebrate her birthday. And by all I mean her, Braxton, and me. And our dogs of course. I finished breakfast about 20 minutes ago, I'm just hoping that it tastes good.

"Hey Brax, can you go let the dogs out? We're gonna eat outside today." I said, motioning toward the back door.

"Yeah sure" He got up from the couch where he was watching TV, and went outside with the dogs.

Just as he closed the back door, Finn walked out looking stunning as ever.

"You look beautiful," I walked over to her, pulling her into a kiss. "Like always."

"Oh shush." She laughed. "So what's this surprise you were waking me up for?"

"Well since it's your birthday, I thought I would make us breakfast and we could have a little picnic outside."

"I didn't even realize what day it was." She blushed, with a small gasp.

"Well good thing I'm here to keep track of your own birthday." I joked.

I took her hand in mine, and we went outside to enjoy our meal.

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