NENJIL NENJIL IDHO IDHO.......

CONFUSIONS.........

K:Oru vidhathula naanum thappu pannavan thaana. Mathavanga maracha maathiri anne kaadhalicha vishayatha naanum thaana therinjum unta sollala. Onna pudikalanaalum ennikkume un vaazhkka azhiyanumnu naa nenachadhu illa.

Unga veetla othukittu kalyana thedhi kuricha peragu thaan jeevanne vishayatha ellarkum solluchu. Apo kuda niruthirkalam kalyanatha. Ipdi oru kattaya kalyanam manameda varikkum vandhu unakku pidikaadha oruthavanoda nadandhurkaadhu.

M:Naa onnum ongala pidikaadhunnu ennikkume sonnadhillaye. Aarambathulerndhu neenga thaan ennaya pidikaadhunnu enga paathalum thittuveeha. Naa eppome azhudhutte thaana poirken....... 

He was hearing the same statement for the second time. First was on their wedding night. From an angry girl who broke-down completely and expressed her trauma in the form of unreasonable anger recklessly on him.
Second was also the same girl in a different tone as if she's giving justification for something.
Both of them don't know what for she spoke those words. 

But a reasonless soothing breeze passed his heart. He felt a bit light. He himself wondered for that as he was not aware of the reason for sudden change on himself.

Ignoring her interupption he continued,

And she didn't mind this time that he ignored her but decided to listen to him keenly...........

K:Jeevanne sollirkanum. Aana sollala. Matha periyavangalum sollala. Enakku idha sollalama koodadhannu therila. Apdiyenaalum epdi sollirpennum purila. Namma pesikitrundha latchanathukku nee idhellam naa sonna nambirpiyannu kooda therila. Enakullaye evlovo kozhappam. Thelivilladha soozhnela. Unta sollirkanum thaan aana apdi pannadhadha nenacha enakke enmela kovam thaan vardhu.

M:Adhukellam neenga kaaranamileengale. Periyavanga sollirkanum. Adhukku neenga enna pannuveeha. Vidunga.

Both Mullai and kathir were astonished at their first ever proper conversation.

Mullai was actually surprised on why on earth she's soothing kathir? If he repents for his mistakes well and good. Why she cant see him blaming himself? 

What is happening here?

She dont want to think anymore..........

Kathir too was surprised on these unexpected words from Mullai. He himself wondered why he even share his feelings with her? Above that his worst foe or he thinks so is trying to ease him off his guilt. That too for the second time in a row........

What is going on here?

He dont want to think anymore............

He continued talking........

K:Apdi ipdinnu kalyana meda varikkum vandhu ninnu pona bodhu kuda nee "en mama ennaya ematha maataru en akka ennaya ematha maatanga"nnu nambikkayoda sonna andha vaartha.......unakku naanga evlo periya dhrogam pannirkom kudumbama serndhunnu purinjudhu. Thappu panravanoda thappukku thona poravanum kutravaali thaan namma sattame solludhu. Apdi paatha naa kuda "Dhrogi" thaan. Indha dhrogiya thaan andha korangu vallall nu paatu pottu vechirkku. Apram adhukku artham ottradhu thaana........

M:Apdi paatha emaatharavanoda emaali thaan periya kutravaali nnu namma needhi solludhu. Apo naathaana periya thappu pannava?

Gosh............

Whats she blabbering?

Why on earth she's trying to ease him off from his guilt that too by taking the guilt on her?

She dont want to think anymore...............

And he...........

Whats he blabbering?

Why on earth he want to confess his point to her?

He dont want to think anymore...............

Actually both wondered as they were feeling happy........

He.........

Why he is feeling happy?

She just now called his family cheaters..........But he is happy now........

She...........

Why she is feeling happy?

He just confessed that he too cheated her along with his family......But she is happy now.......

They dont want to think anymore......

He again continued talking.........

K:Naanum ellar kuda serndhu thappu pannavan thaan. Andha thappukku praayachitham panna mudiyaadhu thaan. Andha kutraunarchi lerndhu epdi meelradhunnu therila. Apdi irukumbodhu onakku idhu thaan nalladhunnu oruthar sollumbodhu adha seiyanumnu thonuche ozhiya adhu nejam thaana naa onakku seriyaannu yosikka thonala. Edho avanga sonnanga naa senjen avlo thaan. 

Solla pona idhu dhyaagamo en innum panna thappukku prayachithamo kuda kadayaadhu. Dhyaagamnnu nenachirndha en melaye enakku parithabam thaan vandhurkkum. Prayachitham nu nenachirndha un mela enakku parithabam vandhurkkum. Rendume illama kovam thaan irundhudhu. Adhu kovamannu kuda therila. Kaaranamilladha per solla theriyaadha edho oru unarvu.

Enakke seriya therila thaan andha nerathula epdi edhukku naa andha mudiveduthennullam. Edho anni sonnadhum amma unga appallam azhardha paathadhum adha seiyanumnu thonichu naa kalyanam pannitten. 

Edhayume perusa naa yosikkavo nenaikavo illanradhu thaan unma. Adhanaala thaan indha kalyanam naa panna dhyaagam nu solradhu enakku pudikala. En na apdi oru vishayam enakku thonala. Oru vidha kozhapathula thaan naa kalyanam pannen. Enna thaan anni sonnadhu romba mukkiya kaaranamnaalum enakkulla edho oru artham theriyaadha ullunarvu enna indha mudivedukka vechudhu. Mothathula naane oru kozhappamana mana nelaila thaan indha kalyanatha pannen. Nee nambinaalum nambalanaalum idhu thaan nejam......

He felt like drinking water after giving this much brief explanation as it is the first time evr in his life he spoke this much on a whole continuously.

He took his "sombu" and had water.

He himself was pretty much confused of the feelings he had for her and the reason he gave her for the marriage. Because till now he asked the same question n number of times to himself why he married her? But never ever he got an answer for that......

Does he feel for her?

But what?

She..........

She too was confused on her undiscovered feelings for him.

Does she feel for him?

If so......

What she feels?

What she got as an answer was a BIG QUESTION MARK.............

Where and when will she find answer she is not sure?

When all these confusions will end?

Will it be the next moment?

Or will it take their entire life-time?

God knows..............

TBC..............