15th July 2020
I suddenly feel like I am being used.
God, I do not know why just a short break from that conversation makes me feel sad and worried.
God, if we never meant to be just please stop this connection.
God, if I am being used by, please stop this connection.
God, I feel so bad that I could not help myself.
I could not stop thinking about the pain during this time.
God, why he does not care about me? Why he have not reached out to me? Does he know I delete my account? Is he finding my real account right now? Is he stalking me? Does he care about me? How does he feel?
God, tell me why I have to experience these toxic connection at the same time?
God, tell me these are not another test.
God, please pull me strength.
Please send me in the right place where I belong to.
Please stop sending temporary people into my life. I am exhausted now, terribly exhausted.
God, why I dreamed about him?
God, why he existed in my sleep even I tried hard to forget about him?
God, why I feel this bad but I could not cry.
God, Is this a Karma I have to experience?
Why people always take advantage of me and leave when they got what they want?
What I had done in the previous life that I have to experience all of these situations?
Tell me, You are sending things I always ask you for, to me.
Tell me, No matter how bad the situation now, I still strongly survive at the end.
Tell me, this connection is still going on.
Show me his reply after I finish writing this.
Guide me through the right path where I meant to be.
Please put me in a good condition, please make me happy. Please stop hurting me and letting people use me.
Stop sending temporary people into my life, Can you just please have some mercy on me?
God, I hope you feel my pain and numbness.
God, It is terribly hurt.
God, Please be by side no matter what.
Please put me to sleep and whisper to me that everything will go back to normal. Everything will be fine, just do not worry kid. God, Tell me this!
I am begging you ...
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Unspoken Truth
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