S.L.U.T

Chapter 7

It was the next day and we were all sitting around in my basement again. "We should do somthing" we all looked at michael.

"Like what" Michael began to think.

"We should find a drummer and be a real band"I giggled at michaels strange idea.

"Where are you going to find a drummer" he shrugged his shoulders.

"The coffee shop?" I giggled again.

"Okay then you and I will go find a drummer, I'll go get my shoes on" I moved from Luke's side and he grabbed my wrist.

"Do you want me to come" I shook my head and smile.

"Babe I've got this" he smiles and let go of his gentle grip.

Michael and I quickly left my house and went to the coffee shop. "I don't think there is anyone here" I pushed my eyebrows together.

"Maybe there is a drummer at school" he shrugged his shoulders.

"Want some coffee?" I nod my head and sit down at a near table. Waiting for him to come back.

"I hope you like frappes" I nod my head a take a huge slurp of the delicious drink. "So" I look at Michael. "You and luke" I shake my head.

"It's complicated" he looked at me confused

"How so?" Wow he is really curious. I shook my head again.

"It's just a long story" he took at drink of his drink.

"Well we've got s long time" I sighed and shook my head.

"Well you know that Riley girl?" He nod his head. "Well she was coming on to Luke strong and he panicked and told her that him and I were together." He nod his head again. "So we have been acting for the past 2 or 3 month and I guess I've grown feeling for him"

"What kind of feeling, feeling like ours?" I shook my head no.

"Stronger feelings, I told him that I loved him." I was crying now because I knew me and Michael had a thing and that he was just waiting for me but I can't control what I feel all the time. "I'm sorry"he shook his head and smiled. Why is he smiling.

"It's fine I knew I could never have a change with someone like you" my heart dropped into my stomach. I stood up and left. I didn't have to take his shit.

I the walk was long but it helped calm my nerves. I opened the door to my house and saw like all over ryley. "WHAT THE FUCK" Luke jumped back and ran to me

"Rowan I'm sorry it's not what it looks like I was just, I'm sorry I didn't mean to i just" I shook my head and the tears we streaming again.

"After I told you I loved you" he grabbed my head.

"No babe listen it's not what it looks like I was just" I looked at ryley and pushed Luke off of me.

"What the fuck bitch" she backed away.

"Listen I didn't do it this time I know you guys were dating he came on to me I didn't come onto him I swear" I turned to face him.

"I think we should break up" I turned back to ryley.

"Listen it was all fake we weren't dating he just didn't know what to do about you coming on to him he is all yours now" I walked away with tears in my eyes. I pushed past Michael and went back out side.

"Wait Rowan wait" I saw Michael following me.

"What" he stopped in front.

"Are you going to be okay?" I shook my head and threw my hands in the air.

"I don't know, I think I just need to be alone for a while" he nod his head and I stepped into my car and watched him walk back inside. "I can't do this anymore" I pushed the key into the keyhole and started the engine. I drove it too the nearest bridge. (I stole this from my friend ryley and yes she is a character in my book but her story is. Allied amnesia and it's amazing you should read it) I stopped the engine and stepped out. I let out air and walked to the edge of the bridge. I should write a suicide note. I ran back to my car and wrote one really quickly.

Dear whoever is reading,

I'm sorry I failed. I just couldn't take it anymore. I thought there was something between Luke and I, I didn't think I was all an act. Michael was the one who really cared he was the only one who watched out for me. My mom was never home and that could be part of the reason but it's not. I moved to Australia and it's been nothing but shit, nothing but drama. I just couldn't take it anymore. Luke, I loved you and you threw it all away I should have kept up the lie. But it doesn't matter anymore. Because I'm gone. I'm sorry I failed.

Rowan

I left it in the car so the ink wouldn't wash out when I jumped. I was crying really hard now with makeup running down my face. I didn't think I'd actually do it but I am I'm gonna jump. I stepped up to the ledge and wiped my tears. I looked down at the water and looked up at the sky.

"I'm sorry" and I jumped.