• Read the poem while listening to the song, to get the vibes. •
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nebula
nebula, a comparison to my mind in the state of comma.
open space with cloud made of gas, words with no light breaking my heart made of glass. your air is toxic, i couldn't breath in it. there's no fresh oxygen near and i got controlled like an orbit. everything is filling me up without no spaces left.
i feel my throat tighten with the atmosphere, i couldn't see myself clearly. all i know, i'm slowly consumed by the black hole. losing who i believed was me, into this your handmade role. depicting me as the sun who consuming everything in my way, while i'm a moon trying to get away.
stop trying to break into my space, i'm not your lowly puppet without a face.
every of sentences is cutting my pride up, i tried to heal but you would always be the reason of my buildup.
nebula, my safe space filled with your gas of light.
i hang my head low so i can respect you. because if i bite more, you wouldn't chew. often you asked why i hold so much hatred, when it's your acid that construe it. almost failing in loving the person in the mirror, but i don't want to make more enemy nearer.
affection wouldn't be a banter to your poison, protection is what you offered but i better of aching with hurting bones.
this tears could be as well described a meteor shower, instead of making me relief, it's giving me a pain without solution to answer.
floating around with my thoughts of nebula, wishing i didn't meet you and got amnesia.
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inspired by Breathin - Ariana Grande.
-icy.
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this is my depiction of gaslighting by using nebula.
basically, i've experience gaslighting for a whole three year from friends, who i thought was my best friend and a person i could trust. they made me into this unhappy person who always cries whenever i think i did something wrong to make them mad and its wrong. if you experience situation like this, please dont take it so lightly because it'll hurt your mentality and i suggest you cut off this source of toxic slowly. also i'm here if you need someone to talk to! ✊
if you don't know what gaslighting is, this a few signs on how to spot one. hope it'll helps!
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also this galaxy picture is from a site called hubble where it gives you a picture of space on your birth date, and this is mine which is on 20 january, it's called whirlpool galaxy.
YOU SHOULD CHECK IT OUT BECAUSE THEY'RE HELLA GORGEOUS.
