Anesthetized Woman. (Burnt Skies Series #1)

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 People say that my eyes isn't giving a shit anymore, they're not showing emotions anymore. My mom would always say that i'm not sweet anymore. I'm always with dad , learning how to drive a car. Astria would always ask how am i gonna enjoy my life, living inside a box and i will always answered her i'm afraid of taking chances. 

Hera fixed her hair and wipe the sweat on her forehead. I can say that she's starting to talk, she's ready. 

" Iniwan ako ni Harvey at sumama sa mga babae niya 5 years ago, after kong mabuntis kay Hailey ay iniwan niya ako, sabi niya sa akin na sex lang naman daw ang habol niya sa akin kaya hindi niya ako pinanagutan." 

she's strong, i can see the hurt in her eyes. she's pretending like me, pretending to be strong outside. Fuck you, Harvey.

" She's with Jaimie, probably having sex with her right now. haha. I never had the chance to tell you that i'm inlove with Harvey. But i never knew na gagawin niya din sa akin ang nagawa namin sayo. I'm so hurt but i can't be seen 'cause i'm pregnant. Now i'm a single mom with a very beautiful daughter. I never had a chance to tell you how sorry i am." 

She's crying now, biting her lips ,avoiding the sound of her sob. I don't know kung matatawa ako sa nangyare sa kaniya pero nangingibabaw sa akin na minsan ay tunuring ko rin siyang kaibigan. 

" After that day Zahra, I start talking to Harvey that we need to stop. Even if i'm like this , naging kaibigan kita at iniisip ko ang kapakanan mo. Harvey told me na wag ka na naming guluhin . Our classmates, Harvey told them about us witthout asking for my permission. Harvey cleared my name using you, he said to all of our classmates na ikaw ang umagaw kay Harvey at hindi ako. Sobra akong nagsisisi sa ginawa ko noong pagpayag sa gusto ni Harvey. Kung sana iniwan ko na lang siya agad noon at nakiusap sayo. Pero anong magagawa ko Zahra, nagmahal lang din naman ako katulad mo"

she's saying the truth, i can see it in her eyes.She wiped her tears using a handkerchief. I never talked, i'm just here, siting while listening to her. 

"I heard you're with Trevin , sa tingin ko nasabi na niya sayo ang naging kasalanan niya since nasa magandang lagay naman kayong dalawa right? Sinabi niya sa akin na sasabihin niya agd sayo ang mga pinaggagawa niya dahil ayaw niyang magduda ka sa kaniya." she said while wiping her face.

Hera saw the confused look on my face, 'cause i don't know what she's talking about. Trevin? kasalanan? 

" Oh wait, he still didn't tell you about it? " she asked.

" About what?" i asked. what's happening? 

" Trevin and Harvey , they're friends before. Trevin helped Harvey to skipped your dates with him and to bring Harvey at his club. Playing with girls , fucking other girls. I know it all because you know i'm a party girl so i'm always there. That day too, Prim's little brother Prince , his birthday right. Si Trevin ang nagtulak sa amin na magtalik nun sa kwarto ni Prince, naaalala ko pa nun, parehas silang excited, lalo na si Trevin. That day , nabanggit kase ni Harvey na aattend ka sa party kaya Trevin kalokohan agad ang pumasok sa isip. Trevin made it for fun. He's a badboy of our batch , what do you expect from him." 

I heard it all wrong right, someone please tell me that it's not true. 

" Hindi magagawa ni Trevin yang mga sinasabi mo, Hera." i said out of nowhere.