Anesthetized Woman. (Burnt Skies Series #1)

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Ang buong akala ko ay inaantok na si Trevin pero nakipagtalo pa nga sa akin kung sino matutulog sa kama! Malamang ako, hindi pwedeng magkasama ang babae't lalaki sa iisang kama ! Pero infairness sa condo niya, it's clean.

"fuck off Trevin, ako matutulog sa kama" walang gana kong sabi habang nagsusuklay ng buhok sa harap ng salamin sa cr ,kakatapos ko lng maligo and tapos na din skincare ko.

"fuck off Zahra, I'm the owner of this condo" he answered giving me pillows and a blanket for me to sleep in the sofa.

"I don't wanna argue with you ha? i know you're tired from driving so shut up, i don't want to murder you" I said.

"I don't wanna murder you in that way either pero kaya kitang paduguin. Fuck Zahra that's my bed for your information babe" sabi niya, pinaglalaban paren karapatan niyang matulog sa kama.

"don't call me babe fucker, can you just sleep there tonight please?" I asked cutely while staring at him through the mirror, nakita ko na napahinto siya sa malambing kong boses.

"fine, fuck." rolling his eyes, sign na defeated siya hahhahahaha

Nakatulog ako agad dahil sa pagod sa byahe dagdag pa na kinailangan kong gumising ng maaga bukas dahil may schedule ng check ups yung mga magiging patient ko so i need to wake up early.

Nagising ako ng maramdaman kong may nakayakap sa bewang ko mula sa likod, napabalikwas agad ako dahil si Trevin ang unang pumasok sa utak ko.

"Ahhhh!!!!!" I shouted.

"Ahhhh!!" sigaw din niya pabalik dahil nagulat siya sa sigaw ko, we're both fucking shouting habang nakaupo kami sa kama galing sa pagkakahiga, ang gulo gulo ng buhok niya,pero for sure mas magulo yung akin,grrr bwiset talaga.

I stopped shouting and gave him a death stare dahil sinasabayan niya yung sigaw ko ng sigaw niya na pedeng ikainis ng mga kapitbahay namin, he stopped too when i stopped.

"You better get that hobby of yours out of this house" he said.

"Gago ka pala e, hindi ba doon ka sa sofa natulog! bakit ka nanditu nakahiga sa tabi ko?" i asked angrily.

" Hindi ako makatulog doon eh, tulad mo maaga rin akong papasok noh! kahit na ba isa ako sa mataas na rango sa mga doctor sa hospital, may mga pasyente din ako kailangan icheck up noh." he said.

"Tabi ka nga jan bwiset ka, magluluto ako pagkain ko" sabi ko sakaniya ng walang kaemoemosyon.

-Natapos na kaming kumain, nagluto lang kami ng para sa sarili namin, nagbigay na din ako ng pera sa kaniya para sa condo. I'm done taking a bath and I'm putting on some make-up because I'm so pale every morning but in the afternoon. Nakaipit lang ako dahil medyo mainit and I'm just wearing a dark blue wrap-over dress partnered with a white converse shoes.

Trevin went to the hospital first dahil may meeting daw ang mga higher-ups and dahil may share ang family nila at siya ang available representative ,he needs to attend. Nagcommute lang ako to Hospital dahil malapit lang naman so hindi struggle. When I entered the hospital,i heard the small talk of the nurses around me.

"Siya ba yung bagong doctor natin dito?"

"Oo alam ko siya si Dra. Lacson"

"Grabe noh totoo palang mukha siyang modelo sa personal"

I looked back at them but I did not smile, I was glad because they know me already even if I'm a newbie in this Hospital, probably it's Aunt Melissa's plan.
I continued walking to reach my office and prepared my necessities for the check ups of the unidentified patients who were handed to me.After a few check ups I did, my new co-workers suddenly came in.

"Dra. Lacson tara shot lang tayo saglit para nadin celebration ng pagdating mo!" Dra. Abegail said, i think ka-age ko lang siya.

"Oo nga Dra. buti na lang at dumating ka na, hindi namin alam san kami hahanap ng isa pang mandirigma gosh!!" Dr. Simon said, 

i think he's gay because of his movements pero i dont judge the book by it's cover , title lang. Lol.

"Ano Dra. Lezgo? sorry kung medyo feeling close kami agad masaya lang talaga kami ng malaman namin na kahapon pala dating mo kaya nashookt kami" Dra. Csilla said.

"Uhm ok pero onti lang" i said with a low voice and no emotion eyes, not wanting to show them na I'm happy because of their invitation.

"Ay wow pagod ka dra.? Oh ano na tara na out na ,let's go na sa club! " Dr. Simon said cheerfully.

We are here now in a club that i do not know ,but the nice thing about it is that you can really feel you are having fun because of the lights and music.

"So let's talk about Dra. Lacson, are you single ba?" Dr. Simon asked me,  he's giggling i think he's excited to know it.

I keep silent not showing any emotions sa mukha ko. I sipped an alcoholic drink.

"Don't tell me na you're really single? Girl we know that you are not. Sa looks mo pa lang madami ng manliligaw sayo!" Dra. Csilla said.

"Manliligaw yes, pero i don't do relationships pa e, my first ever relationship was 10 years ago pa. It's a disaster so i guess I'm tired of relationships already." I answered without any emotions, I'm just there while drinking another glass of my alcohol.

"Ow, that's so tagal na pala why don't try another one? Balita ko iisa kayo ng condo ni Dr. Axell sis, malay mo siya na pala" Dr. simon said

"Palagi kaming mag kaaway ni Trevin kaya i don't think so" i answered and drink a glass of an alcohol again.

"Speaking of Dr. Axell,  that's him right?" Dra. Abegail said while pointing her finger sa second floor.

I saw Trevin drinking a bottle of i don't know but I'm sure that's alcohol. Napapaligiran siya ng mga babae niya i guess. I don't know but i feel jealous , cinomfort niya ko dati pero lalandi siya ng ganyan na parang wala syang kasamang babae sa bahay. I can't understand myself that's why i drank a lot of alcohol para mawala ang atensyon ko sa kaniya. Napadami ata ako ng bongga sa alak na ininum ko. I feel so dizzy na.

"Restroom" I said, tumango naman silang tatlo kaya nagpatuloy na ko.

When I arrived at the restroom, I vomited. I washed my mouth with water and took a tissue to dry it properly. I just stood there for a few minutes because I'm really dizzy
at dumodoble na ang paningin ko.While I'm staring myself sa salamin, i realized how miserable i am, yes i have a happy family, but i can't feel the happiness with myself. Nasobrahan ako.

When I came out of the restroom, someone suddenly pulled me to the dark part of the club but I could still see his face.

Trevin... I could smell the alcohol in his breath, our lips were very close to each other. I could see his eyes staring at my lips hungrily. I thought he would kiss me because of his sudden movement pero instead of kissing me, he hugged me tightly. Binaon nya ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya. He hugged me as if he's holding a glass, carefully.

I wanted to cry. I feel so safe in here, inside his arms, i don't know why i suddenly felt this way siguro kase dahil lasing ako. Nag-uunahang pumatak ang mga luha ko.

"Was i too soft? or was the world too hard?"

I asked him while smiling in pain. I'm still inside his arms. I can feel his warm. I feel like I'm so longing for this warm. I'm so exhausted to keep going on this way and he's the only one who really knows what I'm going through. Yes I'm always talking to Prim but i never showed her that I'm weak cuz' i don't wanna worry her because i know she also has problems like me. I realized na Trevin's the only one who can make me feel this sad but at the same time free.

"The body can't lie, so it cries when it's hurting. But the heart is a liar , so it stays silent even when it is hurting " he said while caressing my back, still hugging me tight like crazy.God , thank you for i believe he's one of the reason why I'm still breathing.

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it's okay not to be okay.♡

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