My Hopeless Wish (COMPLETED)

11

I was 11
While he's 14

We really hate each other so much.

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I did all things just to have your attention . Even if it means good or bad.

I wrote my name to your desk. To your notebooks and to your shoes when you're going out for the P.E. class.

I'll sneak inside your room just to annoy you and have some of your freaking attention.

And you really hate the last thing I did to you. I mean to your very precious art work.

"Mr. Perez please pass your poster now. Your time is up!" ano Ms. Adams.

"Ms. I'm still polishing it a little."

"Okay. Just past it when you finish your polishing." Rinig ko habang papalayo ng hakbang si Ms. Adams sa p'westo namin.

May pagkaliit kasi ang height ko at ng dahil sa canvas na nasa harapan ko ay di ko halos tanaw ang mga tao bukod sa katabi ko.

Akala ko ay mag papasa na si Cutie ng poster niya. Nag-paalam lang pala na mag-cr.

This must be the last time and the last thing I'd to to have your attention. I thought.

I inhale and exhale before looking at his poster.

Men. I'm speechless.

It looks like a work of a god. This kind of artwork must place in a private art museum.

Now I'm thinking if I'd gonna push my plan or not.

Ang mga ganitong gawa ay di biro. Sisirain ko lang ang pangalan ko sa kaniya sa oras na ituloy ko ito.

But I choose to do the plan.

I almost died because of heart attack when he entered the auditorium.

Mabilis pa sa alas-kuwatro akong tumayo para ipasa na ang gawa ko. Kanina pa'ko tapos pero hinihintay ko lang talagang umalis si Cutie at maisagawa ang plano. Even if it means I'll disqualify my work because of cheating.

Well, this poster was just one-fourth of my talent.

"Sign your work Ms. Angeles."

Pag-sabi palang no'n ni Ms. Adams ay nilagyan kona ng heart at capital A ang gawa ko. I didn't say a thing and just went out of the auditorium.

Shit! This feels so horrible. I just ruined a masterpiece!

Huminto ako sa School Hall ng school ng may napansin akong pamilyar na mukha.

"Vlademier Perez... Rank 1 International Poster Competition...Champion in International Painting Competition.."

Oh shit! It's him, the school's golden artist. The one Ms. Adams told us. Ang batang pintor ng school. That's why this school was very famous locally and internationally.

Fvck! This really is horrible. What I did was a freaking mistake!

"Are you done looking at my picture?" Nasemento ako sa kinalalagyan ko. Hindi ko malingon ang taong 'yon sa sobrang kahihiyan.

Sana lamunin ako ng lupa ngayon na!

"Can we talk?..and can you look at me kid."

What the hell?

"Who are you calling kid huh?!"

"It's you Ms. Angeles. The one who ruined my poster and now raising your voice at me like you did nothing wrong. It's a very childish act. That's why I called you kid."

Natameme ako sa sinabi niya. Napayuko ako at di kinayang makipaglaban ng titig.

"You don't know what you've done when you ruined my poster."

His cold voice and piercing voice was most likely to send me hell now.

"Just to tell you. I'm not born rich like you. I don't have enough money to buy myself new notebooks exchange of the one's you've written to. My shoes? It looks like a shoes of a beggar. Hindi ko malabhan dahil sapat lang ang panpaba ko para sa damit ko. The poster? My achievements? It's for making money for myself. Hindi ko 'yon ginagawa para makatanggap ng puri at makilala ng mga tao. Ang kailangan ko lang ay pera pinagdamot mo pa."

"I'm sorry..really sorry." Maliit ang hoses ko habang sinasabi ang mga 'yon sa kaniya.

"If you're really sorry. Stop the childish act and leave me alone."

I felt my heart stop beating in a second.

Nag-angat ako ng tingin. I saw a very disgusting look at his face. It made me ashamed of all I did to him.

I look really pathetic. Chasing a petty infatuation.

Nanlamig ang buo kong katawan nang lagpasan lang ako nito.

Umiyak ako mag-damag habang kumakain kami sa Ice cream café. Hindi naman kami sinuway ng manager dahil sinuhulan nila Maya.

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"Pards okay lang 'yon. There are billions of man in the world that could make your heart thump double than what he could. We're still young to cry a river over men."

Sa sinabi ni Yssa ay lalo akong naiyak. Pa'no pag wala nang iba ang kayang mag-patibok ng puso ko? Shit! I'm going insane!

"This is nonsense."

Napatigil ako sa pag-iyak at nag-angat ng tingin kay Maya.

Nakasandal siya sa likod ng upuan niya. Naka cross arms at legs. She looks really scary. She's in the nanay mode now.

"Do you like him?"

"Yes!" Walang alinlangan kong sagot.

"Then, do you like him still after what he did to you?"

"Yes."

Pahina ng pahina kong sagot. Napayuko ako at sumubo ng isang scoop ng Ice cream.

"Then we'll do the next plan."

Nangilo ako ng nakagat ko ang ice cream na isinubo ko.

"Ahh shit anlamig!"

Hinarap ko si Maya nang makainom na'ko ng tubig.

"Do we have a plan?"

"Yeah right. I never heard us having a plan." Dugtong ni Yssa.

"It's all in me. Don't worry and sleep well tonight."

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