Meant To Be

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Jisoo pov

          I looked at jennie who is sleeping peacefully in the bed. She drink orange juice a while back and she slept right after that. She is really weak but she isn't showing it. She always thinks that she is strong enough to hold everything that hurts her and bothers her but as her sister I know what she is capable of.

My heart broke when she said those words of leaving her completely alone coz she deserves that. Part of that is true but still, how cruel it is doing like that to her. Never ever I stopped thinking about her even we are apart. I don't know how she felt, coz all I thought is she's happy coz Lisa is not at all with her to ruin her life but it's totally different when I looked into her eyes. Chae said that jennie broke up with sana the day her dad died.

  Looking at her place and hearing about how she lived these three months like this made me cry my heart out. I love jennie as much as I love Lisa. I can't compare the love between them but seeing Lisa hurting is made my heart ache coz I know it's because of jennie. So literally, I hated her for that and it was just increased day by day but when she finally realized how much she ruined Lisa with her actions and words. I wasn't there with her, chae, seulgi and Irene told me that she changed alot and even they don't believe it at first but we all know that she did changed.

  In these three months, she never did made a scene for leaving her alone, nor did called us anyone to say mean things for doing this to her.

We did crossed path sometimes but she's always the one who moves away from us so that we won't think that she will hurt anyone of us. We are humans right? We will think more worse than anything about others.

  I saw so many times how she goes to the same café and sips her coffee alone sitting beside the window and looks lost in her thoughts. I never her seen crying before. But a while back i saw how she felt alone without anyone beside her.  She cried hugging me and I can't help but to cry too.

  Her words may lie but her eyes, never. I know that. She has something in her cat eyes that says things that one can never understand. It's not so easy to understand what's behind those eyes. She's this mysterious just like lisa.

    I saw how jennie looked at Lisa when she came in with seoyoon. I sensed something in them both. Do we really made a mistake in separating them? I don't know what to say but the way they looked at each other , I still can't get that out of my mind.

     It's like they are talking with their eyes. I did understand the language coz I am in love too. Does that mean, Jennie is in love with Lisa ? Or it's the other way around like forgiveness.

  I can't understand what's it exactly. Jennie eyes showed hurt clearly when she saw Lisa. I wanna know about it. What's going on?

   If my assumption is right, then I think that they two did met without anyone knowing. I just feel like it.

There's something happened between them. Should I ask about it to jennie or Lisa? Things are out of hands when dad Marco said they are done.

   If Jennie have feelings for Lisa, I mean if she loves her after realizing her mistake it's a good sign but still Lisa is  healing from the past incidents. It will be really complicated and also I don't wanna take sides coz for me, they both are important in my life.

   I don't want the girls to get hurt at all. As far as I know, Sehun and Jeon are in between the two of them now. They both love Lisa too and I can say it without any pause. Last time they fought to take Lisa out and it's worse if I have to say.

     I know thinking of all these only leads to one thing. Jenlisa.

     Will anyone think I'm crazy if I still think that they make a great couple? I thought.