Meant To Be

CHAPTER - 18

Lisa pov

       Today is the day that I'm going back to the University again.  I know It's been a month after the incident happened. But I still couldn't get over it. It was became my worst nightmare since that day. One day changed everything I wanted to die instead of suffering like this and this pain is killing me. Whenever I enter into any of the rooms It looks like the library that I'm almost raped on that day. Then I feel like my knees weakened and I immediately cries when the images on my head pops out suddenly and I wanted to get out of the room as soon as possible.. And my head spins around made me to pass out in minutes.. That's what was happening all this time and when I woke up I was in my bed as usual and I know it was my unni who picked me up from the room I went in and brings me to mine. I am worrying them too much and I don't like that. My unni didn't went to the company, and was doing all her works from home. I asked her so many times to go but she didn't listened to me and said she have to take care of me until i was completely good. I know how she is protective over me. And she was blaming herself always that she is really did a mistake while being away from me when that incident happened because she is not there with me at that time when Jungkook did that. I felt so sad for her to thinking like that. She loves me alot and she always there for me whenever I'm sick and whenever I was wounded. She never left me. Even when appa said we should act like friends or more like strangers not like siblings. When we came here for the first time we introduced each other like we never knew whom we are. It was really painful when she Cal'd our father and said that she can't able do it on the first day to act and she cried on the phone. I hugged her as soon as I heard her loud sobs when I'm passing through her room. I heard how she was complaining about this decision that our dad had chosen for us.. I went in and hugged her crying too. But I concerned her that everything will be alright even I was against to this at first but i can't complain since it was for our protection. Unni said it was breaking her when she has to see me as her friend instead of a little princess and she can't do that now cause she loves me more than anything. And I know how she treats me when we are with our parents, she buys me my favorite chocolates and takes me to shopping and supports me in everything I do. But I said she can do it even as a friend but still she says that it will never be the same. Cause when I became her friend because of jennie and Jisoo. Jennie sometimes makes fun of me when she asks something to my unni for annoying me she never says anything she'll stay calm and smiles at me. I can see the sadness in her eyes. Never in her life she make fun of me nor scolded me . And this is all new to her and I know how  much she was holding inside not to burst out. Sometimes we will go late nights to the ice cream parlour and do a little shopping cause she misses me while spending time with Jennie. We sneak out from the house and she will take me to wherever I want and we will roam around the city and will come at early mornings.. That was really beautiful. All these times she was putting so much effort to take me out and spend time with me as my unni and I can't be more happy than that. Now Jisoo unni knows already about everything it was became quite common to have our time. Unni was never leaving me alone in the house giving me my favourite chocolates everyday making , me breakfast playing along with me and her daughter.. And also jisoo unni understood her quickly and they got back together again and I'm never been so happy like this. But I can't able to see her crying because she didn't protect me at once.. It's not her fault and I'm feeling guilty. So I just wanted to delete that from my thoughts about the incident for my unni and trying to move on. It wasn't not so easy. Still the images are vivid in my mind. I can't able to remove it eventhough I wanted to. I'm so scared to go back. What If he does the same again to me? Those are the thoughts that was keep on bugging me . Yesterday I didn't sleep well and I told my unni to sleep in her room cause Jisoo misses her alot she said she can't but I sent her away. And cried silently. I was going to keep this in my heart I don't want anyone to be sad . They have their daughter to take care of. I have to calm down.. I don't know when I even slept but I woke up early and here iam. At the table eating my breakfast that was prepared by Jisoo unni.