Meant To Be

CHAPTER - 2

" you lied and it hurts a lot. You know what hurts more I still love you " .

Lisa pov

      I love the mornings so much.. The flowers that blooms at the arrival of the sun.. Shining so bright.. I love how those sun rays warms me like they are embracing me... I felt like they are tickling my skin.. With a light that shines bright... Giving me a warm morning welcome.. I love this as always..

   Waking up with her in the mornings.. And getting a good morning kiss from her was something that I always wish for everyday.. But what am I gonna do when she leaves me before I woke up.. Like I was nothing but a thing or whatever she thinks of me.. A trash.. But my mornings are never been perfect..i married to a handsome, loving, caring and an intelligent wife.. Jennierubyjane kim.. I never imagined my life without her. And here it is what I wished came true.. But not in a beautiful way as I thought... It was turned upside down.. All my dreams, and all my thoughts I want to share everything with her.. Under the moonlights, walking hand in hand.. I wanted to tell her how much I love her..but it wasn't happened..

    What have I ever done in my last life.. To deserve this suffering.. She hates me.. I always wanted that "tell me this is just a dream of her saying that she hates me.."  But it wasn't.. She said it.. She hates me.. She doesn't love me..

   Yes I do have a crush on her from high school.. But I was never confessed to her.. Despite of me being a shy girl.. I couldn't even dare to approach her.. We used to hang out a lot.. We shared so many laughs.. Endless talks.. Silly fights.. She loves to tease me and I always let her coz if she is happy to tease me then I will accept it for her. But I never thought hurting me will makes her more happier ..than anything.. I always wanted to be with her. When I first saw her then I know that She is the one.. I felt a spark.. And even I still thought about it and it makes me feel happy and giddy.. She don't know how much effect she has on me.. May be she will never know.. I never seen her as a friend.. I ain't gonna lie but it's very hard when u are in love with someone but you have to act as her friend.. Trust me it's more than what your heart can take the pain.. Well ofcourse I regret it now because if only I see her as a friend like she did.. May be I won't be able to suffer like this.. Right? But it also didn't happened..

  Everytime I look, my love for her always increases.. I can't even explain how much I love her.. She is the only one I always think of . She is the one who made me feel like I'm stronger  then . and now also she is the only one who is making me weak.. I never know that she is in love with someone.. Until she said about this on our wedding first night.. Then it makes sense that why she always skips classes and also leaves me when I'm waiting for her at the cafeteria.. She always tell me lies when I asked about where she went.  Her reasons are always silly but I never payed attention to it.. Coz I was not even her girlfriend to stop her nor ask her any questions more or not even be possessive... Well it's my fault that I didn't notice.. If only I know about that then I will definitely gonna stop this marriage at first place.. When Jennie dad asked me to be her wife.. I felt like I'm  the most happiest person in the whole world.. Who couldn't be right? You gonna marry your love.. What can you expect ? This is my dream..i never seen her smiling after we got married. From the night of our wedding and till now.. We have two bedrooms for the two of us..  Yes.. We live separately under the same roof.. Funny isn't it? She warned me that I'm not allowed into her room.. It was an order.. And I never dare myself to enter there.. I never did.. Coz I love her.. I wish I was never fall in love with her. Its so much painful when she is with me in the same house but yet she is far..so far that I couldn't able to reach her.. Coz its her that put the wall in between us.. And it's so painful that I wanted to go back to my before married life when we used to be atleast stay close together.. Since we are friends. But now.. I feel like I'm nothing, useless, worthless person like she always says...