Meant To Be

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Lisa pov

           Lisa, do you think this will suit you? My mom asked me showing the dress that I will wear for my first meeting. But I didn't like anything till now. Coz my mind was somewhere else. I can't able to focus.

   Lisa! She yelled at somewhat louder made me come back to my senses.

Y-yeah mom. That's fine. I said without looking at her.

Fine? What happened to you princess? She asked as her hand rubbed my shoulder.

She made me look at her by lifting up my chin.

I looked at her and her face turned soft.

Did something bothering you honey? She asked me as she caressed my cheeks.

I-i I don't know mom. I really don't know. I said with no emotion in my face.

Is it about jennie? Are you worried about her health? She asked that made me caught off guard.

W-what? I asked her like it was not what she thinks it is.

What means what? I know about you Lisa. There's nothing wrong if you worried about her. Wae? You don't think it was good to think about her? She asked me and I was confused now.

I don't understand, mom. I said and she smiled a bit.

Hmm...tell me now. What's bothering you or whom you thinking of right now? She asked looking straight into my eyes and I feel embarrassed with her looks.

I didn't say anything but keep silent.

Lisa, you can't hide your feelings always. Tell me and I will help you out. She said that made me look back at her.

Mom, I don't know what to do now. It's something that I can't explain and about my feelings, I'm not sure. I mean.. I stopped before inhaled and sighed.

Jennie asked me for a second chance. I stated and looked at her of how she will react but she looks normal.

I thought may be she was frozen and when I was about to shake her shoulder but she smiled.

Aren't you going to say anything about it? I asked her.

So, what's your answer then? She asked me and I swear I was shocked for the nth time with her behavior today.

I was angry on her and I yelled at her. I said to my mom as I explained what had happened that day at Jennie's condo.

That means you didn't answer her still. She said and again I was confused.

I don't understand what you're saying mom. I said to her.

But I do understand, sweetheart. You said you were angry and yelled at her. But you didn't tell her what your exact answer is. That means you are thinking about it. Am I right? She asked me and I feel myself tensed up.

   I -- it's not like -- I was cut off by her words.

Did you see this dress? She asked me and I looked at now and it's really not good at all.

   Tell me now. Did you like it? She asked me and I shook my head as a no.

 
Then why did you said that it's fine? She asked and I have no answer.

  Baby, it's just a dress that you choose even if it's bad. But you are not in your mind when you did that. Look at the things clearly and you'll know what makes you look good. The same way applies to the life. You have to see the things clearly and feel with your heart of what you want. Don't take the decision in hurry or in anger. Coz it will only hurt you.