Meant To Be

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Jennie pov

    I made it!!! Yes! I fuckin made it! Sehun's face though. I can't stop laughing at his state. How dare he to challenge me? Now he came to know who is powerful than him.

I thought he's really going to get the project. I don't know but I just felt like it. Plus, the words that Mr. Marco said about Sehun made me more angry and my mind didn't work at all properly. I know I can do this but still his words almost got me.

There is only one thing I had in my mind that I need to show mr. Marco that what I'm capable of. He wanted me to lose this  project against Sehun but I wanted to show him that I'll get it and now finally it's mine. Now I have so much time to spend with Lisa. Literally like everyday.

Only God knows how much I've waited for this to happen. I can't live without her and I came to know about it so late. I knew my mistakes but everyone deserves a second chance and that includes me too if I have to say. Now, there's no one in my heart except for Lisa. I am in love with her and I really do. I don't know what she's thinking about me. But I can see that she still have feelings for me in her beautiful eyes.

I'm not a fool and I can see what's hiding behind those doe eyes. This time, I want to follow my heart and no matter what, I'm going to say again and again that I love her so much like she told me even I made her suffer all the time.

When I'm with sana, I can easily say how many times I've said her how much I love her , may be it can be counted on fingertips. But for Lisa, Eversince I came to know about her Idk how many times I've said those three magical words in my mind and in my heart imagining her even though she walk away from me.

It was uncountable. She is really a precious girl I've ever known. But yeah, like an idiot I've been blinded by fake love of that bitch Sana.

I don't wanna remember the days I spent with her. I really lost my valuable time by spending with her. I avoided Lisa and now it's too late to be with her again? No. I can't give up nor that I will.

I really need her in my life to love her and to make her the queen of my life. I realized that she is the love of my life since beginning but I didn't know it. I made many mistakes and let her suffer in many ways.

I want to kill myself for that. But I know it wasn't enough and after she left the house I came to know how hard it is to be alone without her presence. It made me breathless.  It won't do any good if I think all of those but I wanna correct my mistakes and treat her right like a princess.

Now, I am back to  the place for the party after my meeting with London manager of my branch.

After the meeting, I can't able to talk to Lisa even I can see her eyes were on me, I can feel something like pride in her eyes. I know that even we are not together, she had so much confidence in me. I am happy about that.

I have a little surprise for her and also I hope she will forgive me and will give me a second chance that I'm waiting for. I wanted to prove myself to her that I'm not the old jennie anymore. I wanted her to know that I changed for good.

  I'm trying things that I've never done before. Is she going to like it? I hope she do. I'm so nervous for the first time ever in my life. Literally I'm shaking now and this feeling is really awesome and at the same time I feel scared. What if It will go into vain?
Can I able to take it? I don't know. I hope everything will go smooth. But one thing for sure. If Lisa going to reject me then I don't wanna be here anymore just for her happiness. It's just I can't show my face to her that makes her sad and make her remember all the bad things happen with me.

The driver stopped the car and I got off outside and I walked inside and saw everyone's in a party mood. But my eyes were searching for one doe eyed beautiful girl but she's nowhere to be found.