Jesse's Girl (COMPLETE)

Chapter 27

* Catherine Continued *

Having ordered a pizza I now stood alone in the kitchen, my hand trembling a little as I placed my phone into my pocket.

What the fuck is happening to me?

Only earlier today I had promised myself that nobody was getting close to me, I wasn't letting anyone in, yet I found myself excited that Jesse was sitting in the other room.

Acknowledging my excitement I suddenly felt the guilt start to build inside my stomach. I closed my eyes and waited patiently for images of Joe to break the darkness. Knowing his cheeky smile would likely only increase the guilt I was feeling, but it didn't matter I needed to see his beautiful face again.

I needed to remember how he used to be, how it used to be when we were together. I needed to remember how it felt to actually start living again, not wallow in the pain of him being gone.

With my eyes still tightly shut I was expecting to see Joe's sun kissed face and breathtaking smile, however it was Jesse's green eyes that appeared before me. It was his cheeky grin beaming back at me. This was starting to become a habit and as I thought back to this afternoon and how his touch on my skin had sent electric shocks throughout my body a smile crossed my lips.

I forced my eyes open and was left feeling confused that the guilt that had started to rear its ugly head had quickly subsided.

'Im sorry Joe...' I sighed 'I know you said it was ok and I know I made you a promise, but it doesn't make it any easier you know' I whispered softly as I looked towards the heavens.

With a final shake of my head I made my way back out to the lounge.

Sitting on the single chair off to the side I could see Jesse bristle slightly at the distance, but unlike earlier he made no mention of it nor did he ask for me to join him.

Not another word was spoken between us which didn't bother me and it didn't seem to bother Jesse either, he seemed content to just lay on the couch and watch TV. Every now and then I would steal a quick glance at him, only to find he was already looking at me and would quickly turn away the moment he was caught.

Any stranger watching us would think it was weird but somehow it felt natural.

It felt safe.

The pizza finally arrived and so did the first words we had spoken to each other since we had made our weird introductions earlier.

We argued over who would pay for dinner and I finally relented realising my green eyed boy...

Wait.

THE green eyed boy was extremely persistent and clearly used to getting his own way.

We ate in silence and continued to watch TV both making sure to keep a safe distance between our two bodies.

I for one knew I wouldn't be able to resist if I got too close to him again and I only wondered if he felt the same.

Maybe I hoped he was feeling the same.

I continued to get lost in my thoughts as I mindlessly watched the TV for hours.

Hearing Jesse try and stifle a yawn I glanced up and noticed it was almost midnight.

'I.. uhh... guess I should head to bed' I muttered awkwardly as I got up out of my chair.

'Oh, ok. Well I'm just going to crash on your couch then' he said simply, as if it was the most normal thing to do.

'Uhh what?' I asked, unable to hide my surprise.