Jesse's Girl (COMPLETE)

Chapter 46

* Jesse continued *

I sat waiting patiently for Catherine to appear the next morning, hoping with everything I had in me that things would be back to normal.

But as the minutes continued to tick by the massive ball of dread in the pit of my stomach just kept on building.

Noticing that we only had about five minutes before we needed to leave for school and she was yet to make an appearance I knew things most definitely weren't back to normal.

Making my way down the hall towards her bedroom a sense of absolute dread washed over me coupled with an intense wave of nausea that nearly bought me to my knees.

Taking in a deep breath I quietly pushed open Catherine's bedroom door to find her sitting on the edge of her bed. Like me it looked like she hadn't slept a wink. Her eyes were puffy and red, a dead give away that she'd spent a good few hours crying.

'Princess... baby are you ok?' I asked as I cautiously sat down next to her.

'Fine' she replied flatly, not willing to meet my gaze. Seeing her body tense at my proximity was like a dagger to the heart, swallowing my hurt I made an effort to keep from reaching out and touching her, even though every fibre of my being was screaming at me to do just that.

'Catherine please, don't shut me out' I whispered.

'What do you want from me?' She snapped at me suddenly, the anger and annoyance in her tone took me by surprise.

'I'm just trying to make sure you're ok' I snapped back.

I didn't mean to snap but I was having trouble controlling the multitude of emotions barreling into me. Something was going on with my girl and once again I had no idea what it was. The fact that she wouldn't let me in only added to my frustration.

'I'm a big girl. I don't need you to look out for me! I don't need you in my life!' she shot back as tears started to well in her eyes.

'What do you mean I don't have to look out for you? Of course I do' I yelled as I pushed myself up off the bed and glared down at her.

'Don't you fucking yell at me!' She fumed as she pushed herself up off the bed and stood right in front of me, her chest heaving as big fat tears rolled down her cheeks.

'Don't yell? How the fuck am I supposed to react when the girl I love tells me she doesn't need me in her life?' I yelled right back, only realising what I had said after the words had left my mouth.

My big stupid mouth.

Fuck.

Now was most definitely not the time to let that four letter word slip out.

Seeing that panic stricken look take hold on her face, I knew that I'd completely and utterly fucked up.

'What?' She whispered as her whole body stiffened.

Fuck it, I've already said it so there was no point in trying to go back now.

'I fucking love you Catherine' I said staring directly into her piercing blue eyes, but as I reached out to pull her body into line she took a subtle step backwards.

As if that that knife in my chest wasn't already sinful enough, that one tiny step just caused it to twist even more.

'No. You can't... I can't...' she said flatly her eyes not leaving mine.

'Catherine I love you' I repeated but before I could say anything further she interrupted.

'You can't! Why did you have to say that! Why? Why did you have to ruin everything?!' She yelled as the tears continued to roll freely down her face.