Can we Make It?

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I lost track of the time and didn't even know someone was there in the room until Nagito coughed a couple of times. I slowly broke away from Shuichi giving him a glare for interrupting our alone time...but it's fine I mean they must have come in for a reason.

"Kokichi, how are your wounds healing?" Nagito walked over and placed another new package of bandages and ointment as well as lotion on the table. I cringed at the sight...knowing that this meant I had to change the bandages again.

Shuichi wrapped his hand around my waist. I smiled at how gentle he was being. His touches were almost too kind and gentle for me to handle. Not that I minded them...I just had a hard time believing I deserved Shuichi.

"They are healing well, most of the wounds have already stopped bleeding anytime we to redo the bandages. So, I'm sure he will be completely healed in a week or so," Shuichi said moving my head into his shoulder. I was confused by this action but didn't say anything.

"That's good I'm glad the wounds are healing," Hajime was still standing timidly behind Hajime...I know it must be because of what happened the last time we went out...

I saw the deaths flash across my mind over and over again. I flinched and felt my stomach clench...why is this affecting me so much? I have seen people die before...so why is it making me hurt this bad now. Wait-

When I'm injured I'm more susceptible to being vulnerable and more honest. This must be it because it's hard for me to hide my real feelings from others and myself...I absolutely hate being completely honest because that means all of the lies I have been telling myself over and over again to keep my sanity...and I don't think I would be able to handle the truth of all the things I have done and all the things I have had to do...

"Make sure you change his bandages twice a day and make sure to give him pain medication three times a day..." Hajime slowly slumped against Nagito's back making Nagito sigh...I could tell he wanted Hajime to heal...but I think after that event it is going to take him a while to get over that event.

"Thank you," Shuichi said before I heard the door click. I pulled back from his embrace and looked him in the eyes.

"Why did you-" He cut me off with a kiss. I widened my eyes because I wanted to finish what I said...so I just grumbled against his mouth.

"I wanted you to not have to look at them...because I know you hate when people pity you...so..." He trailed off and looked like he was going to start crying. I kissed his cheek and moved my lips to his ear.

"It's alright my beloved~, I know this is going to be a long time of me having to stay in this bed while you have to take care of me..." I paused pulling away from his ear and looking to the side. I really hate when others have to go out of their way to help me when I could probably be taking care of myself...but I'm sure that would make the whole healing process just take longer if I had to move that much...

"Although I hate having to make you go out of your way to help me...I'm glad you are willing to," I smiled at him as I turned my head back to face him.

"I will always be here to help you because I love you Kokichi," He laid me back down on the bed and pulled the sheets over me.

"We are going to have to change your bandages again at the end of the day...I know it hurts but I'm glad you are sticking it out," I blushed at his words. I didn't know he noticed how hard I was trying to keep in my groans and screams. I don't want to make it harder for either of them to bandage me up...

"Of course Shuichi," I tried my best to keep my voice serious and calm even though I felt like breaking down and crying. I wanted to cry for many reasons. Losing all the people I have lost in this apocalypse...the pains from my wounds from helping Maki...the pain of having to see Shuichi cry whenever I'm sleeping. I want him to be happy more than anything...and it breaks my heart that I can't even do that...

"Hey it's ok, I'm right here and I won't leave your side ok?" He paused and placed a long kiss on my forehead. I sighed and leaned into the pillow with a sigh. I closed my eyes and let my breathing slow.

"You should get some rest because it's better to sleep off the pain than to be awake through all of it..." I nodded not opening my eyes. I trust Shuichi. More than I have ever trusted another human being...even myself.

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Subsiding to the calming feeling of sleep...my pain giving me a break from the constant feeling in all my wounds. Like a snake suffocating my limbs one by one. Making them numb with a burning pain radiating through my body. Sucking the only feeling I have in them and replacing it with the venom of stinging pain.

The darkness was also calming. Because the light was always the universal sign of the day. Rise with the sun they say. The day starts with the light...and it always makes it seem so daunting. The light blinds you as you have to deal with other people's shit all day...until the night comes.

The calming night where sleep is calling your name. I never like having to go to sleep...because it feels like a waste of the night. The calming aura of the night...wasted because we need to be rested to deal with another day...

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-Here is the next part! I hope you all enjoyed it!! Thank you so much for reading!!-

-ShuichiOuma010-