Can we Make It?

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Kokichi's POV

This whole thing is making me lose my mind...having all of these wounds and scars that make me unable to do the things I would usually be able to do. When Shuichi leaves the room I can't randomly walk behind him and give him a kiss on the back of his neck or a hug anymore...I can't even get out of bed...I just feel so weak like this.

I'm glad that Shuichi is here with me because he is the only one that understands how much I absolutely hate to be babied...or seen as weak. I don't think I would be able to continue on with all of this if Shuichi wasn't here with me every step of the way. This was all my fault anyway...he shouldn't have to stay here all day to be with me constantly. Wrapping my bandages after removing and cleaning the old ones, putting the ointment on my wounds and scars to get them to heal, having to have to see me in this much pain...I hate having to see him sad and even if we are in this situation I want him to be able to smile as much as he can, even if that just means I hug him or tell a dumb joke to make him laugh.

I woke up again just as all the days before to be met with Shuichi sitting next to me on the bed. "Oh, good morning Kokichi," He said with a smile before moving to plant a kiss on my forehead. I smiled a bit at the action before I looked over to the door to see Maki standing in the door frame. What is she doing here?

"His wounds have almost healed...so we need to get him started on some rehabilitation exercises and medication." Maki said, gesturing to Shuichi. He moved back and grabbed my hands and helped me stand for the first time in months. My legs were all shaky and I was only able to stand for a couple of seconds before I fell against Shuichi. He held my back and one of my hands while helping me stand up again.

"Thanks," I mumbled as Maki left. My whole body was aching at having to move out of the bed. Shuichi just held me and whispered sweet things into my ear as I felt tears coming to my eyes. Why does this have to hurt so much...?

"Maki told me we have to start doing exercises before bed to get your strength back...I will be here to help you if you need me to," He said again before I nodded and clung to him with all of my strength. He smiled and patted my back and slowly moved back a bit helping me stand upright again. I looked at him a little confused before he took a step back. I got what he was doing and took a step forward as well before falling into his chest again.

"I know this isn't ideal Kichi...but know I want you to be able to walk again...because I know it has been killing you to have to stay in bed all the time." He said quietly while rubbing the back of my hand before moving it to gently brush through my hair.

"Ok...thank you for helping me." I said with a small frown. This is going to be hell on Earth...not that the whole situation we are in isn't...

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"You have to start doing some exercises to get your legs and arms back into shape...I'm here to help you do them, but please try your best," I looked up at him with a big frown. He sighed and grabbed my hand helping me stand.

He felt a lot stronger than he was before...but I'm pretty sure that is mostly because I have lost a lot of my strength from not moving around. I groaned while some tears came to the corners of my eyes. I couldn't help letting them come to my eyes...the exercises are painful...moving any of my limbs hurts like hell. Fire burning through all of my nerves at the slightest movement, burning sensations with the slightest touch.

Maki and Kirumi wanted to make sure I was doing squats, lunges, sit ups, and push ups. This was all to make sure that my muscles would be strong even though I was stuck in bed for about a month or so. This whole thing is making my head spin. The pain is too much and my head is starting to hurt...I don't want to have to do this, but I can't give up.