runaways (c.h)

10- love

I woke up the next morning with a splitting headache. I looked over towards the kitchen to see Calum standing there leaning against the counter. He looked up right on time and smiled at me.

He brought me a glass over water and 2 motrins to help me get rid of my headache. I grabbed the glass in my hand, swallowed the pill, then took a gulp of water. I thanked Calum and he sat next to me on the bed.

"What do you wanna do today?" I asked him.

he grabbed my hand and started playing with my fingers while we thought of what we could do.

"Would you like to go swimming?" he asked me with bright eyes. Instantly I regretted asking him for ideas on what to do. I've always been self conscious of my body, and even though Calum is my boyfriend, I'm not ready for him to even see that much of me. I thought of an excuse as fast as possible.

"um I d-don't know how to swim." I stumbled to get the words out.
he laughed.
"Lil I know you like to swim, you told me a few nights ago at the park." he had a questioning look on his face. "is it the headache?" he questioned, looking suspicious.

"oh! yes it is my head feels like it's about to explode!" I lied.

"Babe I know you're lying." he said sternly. "what's wrong? why don't you want to go swimming?"

I knew I couldn't keep this secret from him forever. So I just got straight to the point.

"I don't want you to see me in a bathing suit." I started. he looked confused. "I've always been conscious of my body and I don't want you to see me. I don't like the way I look. I'm not happy with myself Calum. I hate myself." I finished.

He looked really upset after what I just told him. It was a disappointed look, but why would Calum be disappointed because of my self consciousness?

"I don't like to hear you say that." Calum spoke quietly. "I don't like hearing you say that you hate yourself, because I think you're absolutely beautiful in every way, shape, and form, and I wish you could see yourself the way I see you.

What he just said to me is the nicest thing anyone has ever told me. I've always been made fun of so this was something totally new for me. The love of my life just complimented me. wow.

"I love you" I whispered while looking down.

"hey, look at me." he put his hand under my chin and lifted my face to look in his eyes. "i love you more." he spoke sincerely.

I smiled and leaned in to kiss him. We sat there for about 10 minutes, kissing each other passionately and holding each other. I love my life right now. I love the hotel were staying in. I love the friends we made here. I love the gorgeous scenery of my favorite city.I love the little memories I've made in the past week. but most of all I love the boy I'm kissing right now. I love Calum Hood.