As simple as it can be

15. Lucky

Millie's POV:

I woke up. The same pain I have been feeling for the past days stabbed me in the heart with the same amount of strength as always. When my eyes opened, sunlight was hitting them, making them squint. After adjusting to the sharp light, I turned my gaze to my left and was greeted by a pleasant surprise. The curly haired boy was right there, already up and smiling sweetly at me.

"Good morning, sunshine!" he said, making me laugh.

"Good morning to you, too!" I responded, leaning in and kissing his lips softly. He was the only one who could make my pain die down and make me smile in these difficult times.

"How did you sleep? And when exactly did you come here?" I asked.

"Well, I couldn't fall asleep last night, so I came here with you. When I entered the room, I saw how peacefully you were sleeping, so I just sat down and fell asleep next to you! And from that moment, I slept like a little baby." He told me, making me laugh again, but immediately stopped when I remembered what was that day.

"Hey, don't worry, I'm going to be right next to you through it all to hold you!" he reassured me, then coming in for another kiss, just as sweet and meaningful as the other one.

I was worrying a lot, but what Finn was doing definitely helped. After that, we got out and started getting ready. I put on a black dress for the funeral. I went to see how Sadie and Ava were doing. They were staying in the same room, and mom was sleeping in the living room sofa. Dad offered his bed, but mom refused. They didn't really talk, and that made me even sadder.

When we were all ready, we made our way to where the funeral would be taking place. When we got there, Katie was already there.

I saw her and her sadness from afar, and my first instinct was just to run to her and hug her tightly and cry with her, so that was what I did. She immediately started sobbing, and I caressed her hair and told her I'm there for her and that I knew she was having a baby and that I was so so sorry.

The ceremony came pretty fast. I couldn't focus to anyone who was greeting me, I was just lost. I saw Charlie's photo next to his casket and I couldn't believe we were there. His body was laying peacefully, and that seemed like a comfort for me, but I didn't know why. Maybe it was the fact that he was watching me and that made me need to make him proud and to be strong, and not just for him, but for Katie, too.

We said our goodbyes to my dear and sweet big brother, and then he was buried. Buried away from us, buried 6 feet under ground, buried away from this wonderful world. Some people say he's in a better place, but I think that he might not be. I'm not saying he's in hell or something, but maybe, just maybe, there's just no afterlife. Maybe he's not watching me right now, maybe his soul is buried there with the body. All those feelings, all those memories, all those days where he would make everyone smile, all the pain he has been through, everything is right there with him. But I preferred to think he is indeed in a wonderful place, where the sky is always blue or sometimes pink, the air is always filled with the smell of flowers, the water is clearer than the sky, the stars shine even brighter and he's happy.

We went back home after that, we meaning me and Finn, because the others went to the service. Sadie wanted to come, too, but I told her it would be best if she stayed with Ava. I couldn't be there for her right now, because I was feeling not well at all, and I couldn't even stand up properly, so that would be best.

"Are you okay? How are you feeling? Do you need anything?" Finn asked worriedly.

"Can you make me some tea, it always help when I'm feeling like this" i told him, trying hard to smile, but failing miserably.

"Sure, I'll be right back!" he told me, kissing my forehead and going to the kitchen.

After a little bit, he was back with a cup of steaming green tea. He added honey and lemon, just how Mary taught him, he told me. That's when I finally smiled for real. Then, we just stayed there and stared at each other while I drank my tea.

After 2 or 3 hours

Mom came back with everyone. They came in my room to check on me, and I told everyone I was fine. It was all over. Charlie was buried, I was still in pain, everyone was devastated, and Finn was still beside me, comforting me, and I felt lucky just for that. Although my life felt like it was falling apart, I still felt lucky with Finn. He was making me smile, which was very hard. And I was feeling lucky and thankful for him. He smiled, looking me deep in my eyes, and then closed the gap between our lips. Our kisses were so sweet and they made me so happy.

We spent another 3 days with dad and Katie, and then we decided to head back to New York. Me, Sadie and Finn took a plane directly there, and mom and Ava went back home to LA. We made a promise that we would call each other every day to check on each other. Dad promised he would call from time to time to let me know how Katie was doing, because he said he would be taking care of her and providing a home for her and her best friend, who helped, too.

The flight this time was even longer. We made a stop somewhere, because we needed to switch planes, and then we continued. This time, I sat next to my freckled face, and we slept most of the time. We laughed and talked, but unfortunately, we forgot about our pretzels.

When we got back to the dorm, everyone was in my room and they sat there, ready to hug and cry with me and ask me how I feel. I loved so much. I greeted them all, and then I told them I was tired, because I was, and they left the room for me and Sadie to rest.

Although I said I was tired, I couldn't sleep, so I texted Finn.

Mills : Hey. Can't sleep, can we meet on the roof of the coffee shop?

Finnie: Of course. Meet me downstairs in 10. Bring something with you, it's cold.

I got up, took a sweatshirt from my closet and went downstairs. Finn was waiting there for me. He seemed tired as well, but apparently he couldn't sleep just like me.

"Let's go." He told me, opening the door for me.

We made our way to the shop and to the roof. When we got there, we sat down cuddled up into each other and looked at the stars.

"You can't imagine how thankful I am to have you! Thank you for everything, you were there right next to me through it all, you cuddled with me, you kissed me when I needed, you told me everything was going to be fine when I felt I was breaking and you made me tea, which was amazing by the way! Mary is a genius." I told him, making him laugh. I was tearing up.

"I'm glad I could help. You mean so much to me already, and I can't stand you being sad, so I tried my best to put some light in the situation as much as I could" he said, kissing my nose. I chuckled. He was so childish sometimes, but I loved it.

We stayed there for some more time, and then we fell asleep. I dreamed about something good again, and I knew in that moment I was healing. Only because of my curly haired boy. He made everything so simple, and like he was saying, as simple as it could be.

A/N Hello everyone! So, this is so cute tbh. They are so so cute, and their relationship just started. I hope you like it and if you don't, I'm sorry, but I do, so I don't care. Kidding! Thank you so much for reading, and I love you all so much! xx