Sugar Daddy

This is How I Fall

A/N - Your comments inspired me soo much

Beam was very tired, satisfied and…….naked as he lied there sprawled across Forth's bed. His body was glistening with sweat and…. other liquids. Forth, who just came out from the bathroom stared at his lover with a questionable look. "Are you sure that you don't want me to carry you inside and clean you up?" 

Beam whined. "You are not gonna give me a break though. Last time you fucked me in the bathtub" He pouted, embracing his own body. "I will break! I feel like you rearranged my insides last night"

Forth sat on the edge of the bed and held his lovers hand, to place a chaste kiss on his wrist. "I'm sorry love…" his fingers slid through his lover's hair, drenched with sweat. 'you were screaming for more though' he thought. But he didn't dare to voice it. "does it hurt so much?"

Beam sighed contentedly. "In a pleasurable way~". He turned to his side, hugging Forth's arm. "I wanna sleep like this all day" he muttered, closing his eyes. 

Forth didn't reply. 

A minute passed. Still no response. 

The younger looked at his lover with the corner of his eyes, who was now looking at him with such a guilty look in his eyes. 

"Don't tell me…"

"I'm sorry Beam…"

Beam pushed Forth's arm away and abruptly sat up on the bed, wincing because of the pain caused by the vigorous movement.  "Another party?" He whined, giving Forth an annoyed look. "Who's? Where?"

Forth sighed, standing up, and taking Beam in his arms, disregarding his blunt protest. "It's a charity event held by Leonard Wongpipat"

"Leonard?" Beams eyes widened as he screeched. He started squimering in Forth's hold, thrashing his limbs around. "Nooooooooooooooo! I don't wanna go!! Don't wanna go! Put me down this instant!"

"This is still your job though, going to parties as my date" Forth sighed as he complied by putting him down. "Aren't you worried about whores throwing themselves at your boyfriend?"

Much to Forth's dismay, the younger man ran to bed again and slid under the sheets. "I'm taking a sick leave"

"You are perfectly fine"

"I can't feel my lower half"

Forth gave him a deadpanned look. "You were quite energetic a second ago"

"I don't wanna go though. That guy is a creep"

Forth frowned. "What happened?" 

Beam played with the sheet avoiding Forth's gaze. "I met him like two times" 

"I know"

"What?! How? And you didn't even mention it?" 

Forth sat down beside him. "Surveillance cameras. My men"

"Even in the coffee shop?" 

"My people work there" he chuckled. "Even though I don't give you a personal bodyguard, I have my men placed around your university. And have a few following you” 

Forth raised his eyebrows at the distorted look on the Beam's face. “Why? I thought it was obvious. Why did you even think that I would let you set a foot outside without a proper guard?”

Beam threw his pillow right on Forth's face and jumped off the bed, shouting. “You have no respect towards my privacy!”

“All i want is to make sure you are safe!” Forth stood up and wrapped his hands around his young lover; who melted into his embrace as always. “My life would be a living hell if something happened to you. So please let me do this”

“There is nothing I wouldn't do, for the fear of losing you” he thought. But Beam doesn't need to know that. 

Then he kissed Beams pouty lips. “You still have some privacy though” he said “i still don't know what you were talking about with Lenny”

Beam glared at his lover. “Why are you calling him Lenny?” he thought. Instead of replying, he grabbed a towel from the rack and walked to the bathroom. “You are still a stalker”

Forth hummed.

“And a creep. A huge creep”

Forth ruffled his young lover’s hair. “Yes...yes”

“Will you find a suit for me?“ Beam shouted from the bathroom

“On it”

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Forth had chosen a white skin fitted suit for Beam. And he himself was already in his signature black tux, putting on his Rolex when Beam emerged from the bathroom wearing a bathrobe. 

He stood in front of his lover, his arms spread, as if he was asking Forth to dress him up. 

Forth shook his head, chuckling. But he started to disrobe Beam nevertheless. 

“So what did he say?” he asked, as he placed a gentle kiss on Beam's snow white collar bones. 

“Who”

“Lenny” 

Forth slid down the robe over his shoulder and caressed the sides of his torso with the back of his hand, appreciating the smoothness. 

"Why the heck are you calling him like that? Isn't he like your rival?"

“Do you really want to know?” Beam gave him a pointed look.

“Do you want to tell me?” Forth helped him wear the white shirt and started to button it up. 

“Whether I tell you or not, it's not gonna make a difference"

Forth stopped in the middle of the process. A small, barely noticeable frown appeared on his brows. 

"It does. It really does Beam…" He was thinking. "It tells whether you have the courage...to open your eyes to what I have done, instead of running away. Isn't that the reason you refuse to meet Lenny? Because you want to give blind eye to whatever I did? Instead of acknowledging and accepting?"

He buttoned up the rest of the shirt. 

"Tch.. doesn't matter what you think…as long as you look at me with those smiling eyes, I wouldn't mind even if you are plotting to murder me in sleep"

Beam looked at him, his face scrunched up in annoyance, when Forth seemed to be sinking in a Ocean of thoughts.

"He said that...you are a murderer...that you killed so many... including your father" He stated. His voice was surprisingly clear and sharp. 

"Do you believe him?" Forth straightened himself and took Beam's hand in his. 

"Should I?"

"Do you want to?"

"I don't care. I don't care if it's the truth or not" Beam, who was only wearing a dress shirt at the moment, wrapped his arms around Forth's neck, and looked right into his eyes. And then kissed him.

Not a chaste peck on lips. A deep, passionate one that blew Forth's mind, making it void of all thoughts. When he broke the kiss, Beam whispered against his lips,

"You can commit a massacre and still my love for you wouldn't lessen a bit" 

Forth looked at him with widened eyes, unable to utter a single word. Beam's love, which surpassed his own mother's, was deep, crazy, unconditional and….

Terrifying.

It seeped through his skin and soaked into his bones…

And Forth was sure of his fall...