Sugar Daddy

A secret told by a rival

"....And thus, borderline personality disorder requires a consistent therapy for a long period of time. The other antisocial personality disorder is psychopathy. Unlike BPD, a psychopath doesn't suffer from psychopathy. He benefits from it even."

Instead of listening carefully as he usually do, Beam just wrote down whatever his ear picked up on his ipad; another gift from Forth. For a moment he wondered if Forth decided to leave him, would he take back all the stuff he gifted him?

Honestly speaking, beam knew he was worrying unnecessarily. Because deep down he knew...he knew that Forth wouldn't leave him just like that.

Deep down he knew Forth wouldn't ever hurt him.

It's true that his conclusions about people have almost never been right. But there was something about forth, that prevented him from thinking that he would leave him hurt. Just one thing that made him want to never let go, that made him hold on no matter what happens. Something he unconsciously, yet desperately craved for years....

That one word Beam would have used to describe Forth.

The thing he feels whenever Forth touched him, kissed him or held him...

....his kindness.

Forth was a kind man...

He doesn't have a slightest idea how his so called lover treat others. But...

When it came to Beam, every thing about him, spoke of kindness and gentleness. Forth has the most gentle voice when he called his name...has the most kind eyes when he looked at Beam, and most tender touch he has ever received.

What else would an abandoned and wounded child like him crave more than kindness?

Someone to pick him up from ground and wipe away his tears...

Forth is kind in the cruelest way, that it almost hurts...

And beam trusted him with his life...trusted that he would never break him..,

Beam blinked away the tears pooled in his eyes and continued taking notes of the lecture which just became audible again after his emotional escapade.

"....Psychopaths are born. Their brain differs from a normal person..."

I wish I had an iced latte right now. Beam thought as he continued taking notes. And made a mind note to buy one after this.

"....unable to feel guilt, fear or remorse or shame. Take great risks because of that. So they usually make great serial killers and assassins...a psychopath would make a great CEO. Since they are not afraid t do anything and everything to have their goals achieved. They tend to do lot of white color crimes, in handling business..."

As he wrote down those words, a strange feeling appeared in his gut, as if someone is squeezing his core, the pain of contracting muscles spreading to his chest. He start rubbing his chest, soothing the pain away...

....just calm down...

...there is no way that anything would happen...

"...the difference is sociopaths are made and psychopaths are born. What's good about sociopathy is that...there is hope..."