Vkook/Taekook -- One Shots

Confidence

Taehyung's POV

What is it like being confident?

I can be confident when I'm with my friends but with those whom I'm unfamiliar with, I tend to have low esteem.

"Kookie, do you think I'm confident enough?" I asked my boyfriend as he drove home.

"Hmm, to be honest, no." he nonchalantly said.

"Oh, in what aspect?" I pried further into the topic, expecting something from him.

"everything?" he stated.

I sighed; letting go of our intertwined hands (yeah, he drives just with his other hand)

"everything?" I repeated his words in disbelief. Why do I feel so disappointed? Is it because I always confide my problems with him all the time?

That's why, I looked confident on the outside with other people. Just that I don't show it when I'm with him. I don't mean to be too dependent on him.

I know I'm very independent but since he's my boyfriend, I could rely on him when I'm always facing some sort of issues.

I am aware that I care about what other people think of me, the clothes I wear, the car I drive, my actions and yea, they're not that fancy or whatever. I know I shouldn't care but why do I unconsciously care?

"well, I guess you're confident in studies and being a librarian back in high school?" he continued, probably hoping to not hurt my feelings but it kinda is a lil too late for that.

I was already scraping to the back of my brains wondering, 'since when was I not confident other than meeting with his parents and friends.'

"I see." I deadpanned, facing towards the window. I was expecting him to encourage me or tell me that I'm more confident when I'm this and that, but he just ended his words like that.

I don't mean that I want to be spoilt but it's fine, I guess.

Kookie then noticed the change in my behaviour and patted my head.

I just dead stared at him and he quickly retracted his hand.

"What?" he asked.

"Nothing? You can continue patting me, I'm just staring at you oml."

And then, silence.

I felt a little uncomfortable.

"We're here." He pulled over to my house and hugged me tightly.

We exchanged kisses and before I got out of the car, I asked him,

"Why do you like me?"

He sighed, looking frustrated, "No reason?"

"You said that I have no confidence. Why do you even like me?"

"I love you, okay?" he said and I kinda gave up.

"Fine, thanks for the ride. I love you, bae."

"I love you too, my love." He bid farewell and left.

I don't feel great after all that even though he patted my head to make me feel better and gave me lots of hugs. I'm still not sure if that was the reassurance that I needed.

What do I do?

-- (29/7/2020)

So, what do you think about this scenario? Is anyone in the wrong? Is it okay for Kookie to be that straigtforward?

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