FALLEN ⤷ 𝙠.𝙖𝙠𝙖𝙖𝙨𝙝𝙞

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘦𝘦

[CALL ME (F/N)]

[Name] pov...

Tomorrow is officially my first day as team manager for the Fukurodani Volleyball Club. I am excited, however a bit worried about what this means for me. I mean like I am close with my brother but spending more time with other people kind of scares me. I just don't think I would want to open up or even just become friends with anyone.

I guess it just comes with everything, my mom being somewhat well-known, my brother being the VBC captain, and just other things. I just don't want to be used.

And well I just have to live with that. Although Kōtarō is different. He is outgoing and lively. I just don't think I could be like that. I grew up with temporary friends. People who were in my life for five months tops. I never opened up too much or anything because I didn't want goodbyes to be painful. I was afraid of getting attached to anyone. So I just got used to shoving emotions deep down inside and never showing anything.

I should probably say that my mother took me along traveling because she didn't want to be alone. I know kind of selfish. She left Kōtarō with my dad although they are separated. My brother didn't want to travel or anything like that. He was already establishing roots in Tokyo and my mother thought it would have been easier on me to be on the move. Of course we visited my brother every couple months but his childhood was much different than mine.

Apart from never having permanent friends, constantly being on the move took away my drive for volleyball. I no longer had motivation to become part of a team and put in work to get to know everyone. It was all so draining.

My mother didn't really notice my shift in personality. She just assumed that it was a "phase". Of course for her, nothing was good enough. I always tried to live up to her expectations but I knew it would never be enough. She left my dad because she felt tied down to him. She set off to open up her business in different parts of the world and I am proud of her but I just wish that things were different. I wish that every time we talked it didn't end in an argument. I wish that she could have been more present in my brother's life. But again I can't do much about it.

I should probably get up. I have been feeling a bit under the weather lately but it will pass.

"Hey, good morning (f/n)." My brother startles me.

"You scared me. Good morning." I lift up my sheets and sit up in my bed.

"Akaashi and I will be going to the park in a little while, if you want to come." He picks up a nicknack from my shelf, toying with it. I can tell that he knows I am feeling out of it.

"I think I'm just going to stay home today but I hope you have fun." I say in a stoic tone.

"Are you sure? Maybe you'll feel better."

He knows that isolating me can just make me feel worse. Although, we haven't spent much time together over the years, he knows me better than anyone else.

"Okay, fine I will go with you. Just let me get dressed real quick."

"Yes, I'm excited!" With that he walks out of my room.

I get out of bed and walk over to my closet. I pick (outfit of your choice plus a beanie).

After changing into my clothes, I brush my (h/c) hair put the beanie on.

I look at myself in the mirror and see that I look dead. The truth is I didn't sleep much last night.

I apply some light concealer under my eyes to cover and brighten and apply (any other makeup you wear/want to wear). I set the concealer with some power and walk out of my room, instantly surprised to see Akaashi sitting in my living room.

"Hey. I would say Bokuto but then that would be confusing, don't you think?" he greets me.

"You can just call me (f/n)." I said mostly because I'm not very big on formalities.

"Okay, thanks for the clarification."

Akaashi was wearing a gray hoodie, some dark blue jeans, and some black sneakers. My brother was wearing almost the same thing except it was a navy blue hoodie, and gray sneakers.

"Alrighty let's go!" My brother announces.

I walk out of our house and make sure to grab my blue zip up jacket.

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We arrive at the park and instantly go to the swings. I can't help but imagine a much younger Kōtarō running around the playground full speed.

My brother sits down on the swing next to me and signals Akaashi to push him. It seems like he's used to the child like behavior of my brother because without even questioning it he starts pushing the swing.

"What? Do you want me to push you too?" Akaashi asks with an eyebrow up.

"I mean I wouldn't stop you."

Without warning he harshly pushes me with force, almost sending me flying across the jungle gym.

My reflexes kick in and I grab the chains of the swing, awaiting the next toss almost.

"Pick me up and throw me why don't you?" I say in a lightly irritated tone.

He acts like he was about to pick me before I smack his hand away.

He continues pushing both of us until I feel my beanie get ripped off my head. I glance back and see him putting it on his head.

"Hey! give that back."

"I think it looks better on me (f/n). What do you think, Bokuto?" He looks at me with a playful grin on his face.

"Sorry (n/n), but I am going to have to agree with Akaashi on this one." The nerve of these two, seriously.

Kōtarō gets off his swing and proceeds to push me with Akaashi, making it virtually impossible to get off. Despite me acting kind of annoyed, they are making me feel better.

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a/n- hey guys :)) this chapter was also longer than expected hehe. Its more of a filler chapter but also to help form more of a backstory for (y/n). let me know what you think.
- aris <3