FALLEN ⤷ 𝙠.𝙖𝙠𝙖𝙖𝙨𝙝𝙞

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘳

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[Name] pov...

My eyes flutter open to be greeted by my brother opening my curtains. He usually does this to help me get out of bed easier. It does help, believe it or not.

"Wake up, (n/n)." he says as he gently pats my shoulder.

"I'm up, I'm up." I mutter as I slowly sit up in my bed.

"I'm going to go change now. You should probably hurry up so we aren't late." I watch him walk out of my room.

I begin to run my fingers through my (h/c) hair, already thinking about how I really don't want to go to school.

I get out of bed and walk to the bathroom to do my skincare. Feeling the cool water wash my cleanser off my face, then toning my face in gentle circular motions, rubbing in my moisturizer all over my face, then finally putting some spf on.

I leave the bathroom feeling more alive than before and grab my uniform from my closet. I put it on and began to do my makeup, which wasn't very much at all just some concealer under my eyes, brow gel, inner eye conner highlight, and some clear mascara.

My hair wasn't that bad today, thank goodness, I decided to just brush it a bit and leave it down.

With all that done I was ready to leave.

"Kōtarō, are you done eating?" I ask, poking my head out of my bedroom door.

"Almost, (f/n). Don't forget the manager permission slip." He tells me.

Getting the paper signed by my dad was much more difficult than I thought. First, he didn't have time to visit when I first came home, and then he said he needed to take his daughter to some retreat an hour from here? I forgot to say that he has another family now. I don't really care for it. Kōtarō says he's talked with dad over the years and he always called every week to see how my brother was doing but after the years he called less and less. He didn't want anything in his life that reminded him of my mom. And well we did.

So I went to his house and tried to be as quick as possible. He asked me the usual questions, said things such as you look so different, you're so tall now, all that. I was as fast as possible because I was trying to avoid meeting his family but of course, with my luck, a little girl who looked about six or seven walked out into the porch and sat next to him. He was so sweet and gentle towards her. I said my goodbyes and went straight home after that. I feel like some part of me wishes he had fought for me more. He could have tried to keep me to stay instead of immediately giving me up. I feel so selfish saying that.

I snap out of my thoughts and grab my backpack, getting ready to head out the door.

I notice I am missing my bracelet, so I go to my room, retrieve it off my jewelry stand and finally head to school.

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We arrive at school and do our usual routine. As my brother talks to Akaashi, I feel my phone vibrate in my blazer pocket. I take it out and see that its a text from my father asking me if we could have dinner tonight at his house. I nudge Kōtarō, motioning him to look at my phone.

"I'm going to say no. Is that okay?" I say to make sure we are on the same page.

"Yeah, I don't want to go." He responds.

I send him a text politely declining the offer with some fake excuse about volleyball. He responds saying that it's fine but to let him know when we are available. I know it's kind of petty on my part but I had to be the one to go to him after not seeing him for years so I don't think I would like to sit through an awkward dinner with his perfect little family. If anything I wouldn't want to even meet his wife. Then again, could you blame me?

The bell rings and I say my goodbyes and begin walking to class. I walk to my seat and quietly wait for instruction from my teacher.

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Its now lunch time and as I was walking towards the library when a girl bumps into me, on purpose it feels like. I look at her, with a look that says what do you want?

"Hey my name's Mei, my dad is your dad." She laughs lightly.

"Excuse me?" Is this some kind of joke?

"My dad is your dad. I'm your half sister. I'm a first year. I just thought that now that you go to this school, I would introduce myself." She clarifies with a small smile on her face.

"Oh. Well hi, I guess. My names Bokuto, (f/n). But you already knew that huh? I have to go." I turn my heel and leave as fast as I can.

This is why he never cared enough to be in my life. Because he already had replaced me with that girl. He had his great daughter that didn't have his ex-wives eyes, or her hair color. He had obtained the better thing.

I feel tears start to build up. I can't cry. Not here and not now.

I continue speeding down the hallway when I bump into someone, who I recognized as Akaashi. Ignoring his questions, I continued on without looking back. I stop until I reach a secluded area with trees and bushes. I'm too inshock to even hear the footsteps behind me.

I sit down against the tree and just let everything out. Soft cries turn into muffled sobs. I hug my knees close to my chest. Wishing that I had never met her. Was it all because of me rejecting the dinner invitation? Did he want me to meet her in the hopes that I would befriend her and his conscious could be somehow at ease? It was the complete opposite of that.

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a/n-hii i'm kinda sad for y/n like i am not the one writing the story lmao. but um who do you think was following them? update coming soon <3
- aris <3