bodyguard ; kth

21 ; lonely

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"we have a lead, tae."

"did you find who sent the letters?"

"not exactly. we did find some fingerprints on the letters. they belong to a tall male."

"okay, that's a start. keep me updated."

"sure thing. anyway, how's aera doing?"

"fine."

"i'm jealous, yo. she's hot and it's big money. i mean, what more can you ask for?"

"bye jimin."

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with each struggling step, i made my way to aera's hotel suite. every step i took sent a painful sensation coursing through my body. i was exhausted. i didn't sleep well last night, my mind was constantly thinking about how i ruined everything with aera. how she won't even look at me anymore.

my eyes were heavy, threatening to close any second. my head was about to explode. even though my body wasn't functioning at all, i was more hurt on the inside.

i felt painfully lonely.

this was all because i ended things with aera. i thought it would be good for us but now the situation was worse than before. it was hard protecting her when she doesn't cooperate. she shuts me off and does her own thing. every time i would try to talk to her, she would bring up everything i did wrong. how i said yes to our little date and how i left her the next morning.

she was forgetting the reason why i was here, which eventually caused me to forget too. i wasn't here to be her boyfriend, i was here for my job which is to protect her.

this was why i told jae in the beginning that i wouldn't protect celebrities. i knew it would end badly. i knew i would get emotionally attached and unable to properly carry out my job.

and that was my situation now. i couldn't stop thinking about her. she ran across my mind every minute of the day. this attachment...this was what i was afraid of.

it could cost aera's life. everything would be my fault.

i shook these scary thoughts away as i entered the hotel room. my eyes quickly scanned the area. my body suddenly stilled.

the room was empty.

"aera?" i called out, walking around but not finding anyone. the suite was completely empty.

where was she?

my heart started to pick up. i started panicking. my feet quickly manoeuvred around the room, searching every corner but nothing.

i stood in the middle of the living room, trying to collect my breaths. in the corner of my eyes, i saw someone walk out of the kitchen. i instantly reacted and turned around, holding my gun out towards the figure.

"freeze!" i shouted, only to realise a second later who it was.

"what's going on, tae?" jaeho asked while waving his hands in the air. i released a sigh of relief and relaxed, looking at him.

"where's aera," i asked, tucking my gun back into my jacket. he looked at me stupified as he exclaimed, "what do you mean? i thought you were with her?!"

"shit," i muttered, walking towards the door.

i need to find her.

just before i was about to grab the door handle, i was taken back when the door suddenly opened. i watched with wide eyes as aera walked inside with gun following. the moment my eyes landed on her, she responded with a glare. she quickly looked away and strolled into the kitchen. i looked at gun who was struggling to hold a million assortments of shopping bags.

jaeho appeared into the kitchen and saw her.

"where the hell have you been?" he asked her, stepping beside her. aera stopped by the table and looked at gun, telling him, "we went shopping. it was so much fun." they smiled at each other, causing a frown to appear on my face.

jaeho let out a tired sigh and said, "aera, we were worried. you know tae's orders, you're not supposed to-" she cut him off, "i don't listen to anyone. i go where i want, when i want."

she turned to look at me with her penetrating green eyes. there was an evil glint in them instead of a soft glow. a mouth formed a grimace as she said, "and besides, nothing comes out of his mouth other than shit."

i stared at her, feeling so many emotions at once. to name a few; betrayal, sadness, anger and regret. but anger seemed to shine brighter as i felt my blood boiling. my fists clenched together until my knuckles were visibly white.

"one more time...and i'm gone," i said quietly as i turned away, not waiting to hear her response. i walked towards the door.

"taehyung!"

my hand stopped on the door handle. i would be lying if i said it didn't hurt a little when she called me 'taehyung.' it seemed so unnatural coming out from her.

"you watch your mouth. you remember who you work for, taehyung. you work for me!" she yelled harshly, not holding back.

"aera!" jaeho yelled after her, shocked at her words. gun seemed content by the whole situation, almost laughing at how broken i looked.

i just stood there, unable to move. at that moment, i felt my heart breaking piece by piece. i've never felt this way before. i never felt so weak by someone. it took me a few seconds to regain myself. without saying anything else, i walked out.

i slammed the door hard behind me.