HOODIE GIRL

Chapter 25

A/N:Hey guys, its me again with another chapter. Who else loves contortion, I do even though I don't know how to do it I love it. That's sofie dossi by the way. Here goes the chapter.

Ashley's POV

I tried to stop the tears coming from my eyes but I failed terribly. I pulled down my hoodie further so no one could see me. I scoffed and rolled my eyes as more tears dropped from it. I don't cry, I shouldn't cry, crying isn't my thing. I imagined what the commander would do if he saw me like this, I'd probably go through the emotion punishment and I think I need to go through it. I was standing outside the bathroom with Eric inside trying to clean his wound. He wouldn't let me come in with him but I stayed outside so he couldn't do anything else. I cleaned my face as I heard the toilet flushing, no one is allowed to see me cry not even myself. I need to be more composed, crying because my friend is cutting is something I shouldn't do, I've seen my friends kill, hell I've killed my friends and even my family and I'm crying because my friend cuts, pathetic.

"Hey what's going on? Why did you leave.......... "I heard as someone say as they raised my chin. I tried to pull my head down but the grip was firm. The person was seeing my face and I don't feel like breaking anyone's hands.

"Why in the hell are you crying?"the person asked. I opened my eyes to see Sam. This is bad, this is really bad. Anyone could have found me except this motherfucker, this bitch is gonna make my life miserable.

"You're crying. What is this, we don't cry"she said, taking off my hood as my hair fell from my loose ponytail.

"What's this, you're crying because the little cut his wrists? You're aspiring to become a commander and you're crying over bullshit. What if you're required to kill the motherfucker for you to become commander you'd pass it up and die. When did you become so fucking stupid? "She said. I put my head down as more tears threatened to fall. I heard a deafening sound as the pain started to register. The bitch punched me, I licked my lips and stared her in the eyes. She looked concerned as she tried to mask it with anger. She's almost perfect at hiding her emotions, but I can read any emotion and hide any emotion.

"We aren't in the academy anymore, we we're trained to be killing machines but we're still human and all humans have emotions no matter how broken they are. I didn't want to care but what can I do? We were created this way and it can't be changed, can it? No matter what rank it is you are or whoever you've killed doesn't change anything. My father was the leader, he made me kill everyone up to my aunt who was the only person who loved me. I killed her all because of a secret I wanted to learn but it was useless. My father is a heartless person but he loves my mother and yes he beats her up everyday but he can't stand me saying shes a bitch he stabbed me for it once. Our current commander beats up Danny but he can't stand anyone saying bad things about his son, he beats you up and says you talked down the family to cover it up. You pretend you hate me but that's not true is it. We are heartless in the academy but as we mix with people we learn that there's other emotions that aren't hate and sorrow and don't call me out on crying everyone cries no matter how strong you claim you are. Everyone has someone or something as their weakness, we just haven't found ours yet. "I said. She stared at me with glazed eyes and I think she's thinking about what I just said.

"Fine I gotta go"she said as she zoomed off, probably going to find a punching bag to beat up for not keeping her emotions at bay.

"Hey"I heard a voice say I and I immediately knew it was Wesley. How in the world am I supposed to deal with this bastard right now. I groaned lowly and turned and tried to pull my hood down but I met hair. Wait hair? My hood is down. Oh Sam you bitch I'm gonna kill you. Please don't notice the hood, please don't notice the hood.

"Hi"I said with a slight smile. Thank goodness I deal with stress in the perfect way. He came closer in slow, steady moves. He cupped my face and tilted his head slightly with a boring look on his face.

"Why were you crying diamond? "He asked pronouncing the name smoothly. I blinked as his eyes kinda captured me, my stomach acting funny. Why in the devil's horns am I acting like this? Why am always flustered with him? This is a new feeling I do not like.

"Um.... I um got something in my eye"I said licking my dry lips as his eyes went down to my lips. Why am I so nervous? I've lied a thousand times before but why do I feel so nervous around him when lying? Is it because I can't seem to read those dark orbs or is it because of something else but I don't think so.

"Don't do that"he whispered, I was confused. Don't do what, cry? I was about to ask but he beat me to it.

"Your lips"he said as if he saw my confusion, "It makes me want to bite it"he whispered. I resisted the urge to roll my eyes. He wanted to bite my lip off, so accurate. I pushed off him and straightened my clothes as I tried to not to scowl.

"Come with me, we were supposed to meet tomorrow but we could reschedule "he said. He pulled me t with me as I tried to explain that Eric was still in the bathroom. I turned to look at the bathroom door but Eric peeped from door as he waved me off smiling. I followed Wesley as he pushed me into his lambo as he got into the driver's seat revving up the car, that is good, I guess this is why Danny love cars.

"You're smiling"I turned to him as the smile on my face fell. Wait was I actually smiling, maybe because I thought of Danny.

"Its beautiful "he said. I turned and smiled. Why am I smiling? People has complimented me before so why do I feel funny. I turned to him putting my hair behind my ear. He was driving with a slight smirk on his face. I like that smirk. Wait what?

Wesley Parker what are you doing to me.

Hey guys what do you prefer spaghetti or rice. I don't even know why I asked that question but bye guys. I'm in a very good mood today and I don't know why.

Zayne out 💝