Blainsville

28) Parenthood

Diana

I could feel someone shaking me it was my shoulder but I couldn't wake up I was just so exhausted, "Ana, I need you to feed him. Diana, Dianaaaa..." I barely open my eyes and Jimmy is out of bed holding AJ in his arms pacing back and fourth trying to get the baby to calm down. I sit up slowly feeling as if I'd been asleep a couple hours, "I'm awake. What time is it?" I mumble attempting to stretch, "Its about 9pm. We been here all day your mom went to go get a few things for the babies but said she would be back in a couple hours. I cant AJ to stop crying I think he's broken." Jimmy chuckles nervously but I could tell this was anything but funny to him. I get up and grab Alan from his arms; poor thing is just a crying away he must have been hungry so I decide to breastfeed him again. When I start to take off my shirt Jimmy goes to Alaina's incubator she isnt asleep either but shes not crying which is just strange compared to her brother. "Come here, princess are you hungry too? God its only been a few hours and I'm starting to realize this is harder than it looks... Jesus... Shes been crying for like half an hour." Jimmy says running a hand through his disheveled black hair. I hear a knock at the door and Jimmy answers it meanwhile I rush to put the blanket from hos bad across my chest, "Its just me its alright. I'm here to give you guys this pizza I bought some a bit ago and you both were sound asleep so I kind of waited till you were awake." Jimmy yanks it out of her hands and opens the box, "Oh you got supreme... Nice..." I give him a glare that says don't complain you idiot just eat it. "Yeah John was unsure what toppings you guys liked so we just got all of them..." She takes a seat on the bed watching Jimmy pick the black olives and green peppers off. "Sorry you kind of caught me at an awkward time. This is the only way he will eat; I guess he prefers boobies." Jess giggles shifting a little to look at the baby boy. Jimmy takes notice of it and looks over at me I just nod, "Do you want to hold her?" I ask Jess literally brightens up about 10 shades. "I mean if that's alright; I don't want to make this anymore awkward than it already is. Are you sure?" Jimmy chows down the first piece of pizza wipes his hands on his gown, "Here, you probably know how to hold her a hell of a lot better than me. I think of it as holding a loaf of bread or a baby meatloaf." I glare at Jimmy, "God you men. Its only been a few hours and you're already referring our kids to food." I roll my eyes. Finally AJ pulls away I put him over my shoulder that's when he spits up all over my bare shoulder.

Jess

I'm holding a lifeform an actual baby baby. This is so different I haven't done this in years it feels almost foreign but when she opens her eyes and looks around and at me I cant help but say awe. "She has your eyes." I say to Jimmy as he's eating a third piece of pizza. He smiles at me noticing how good I am with keeping her quiet and content, "Yeah she's more or less the princess of the family now. I have feeling she wont have my hair color tho she'll probably favor Diana over me. You're pretty good at that." He adds. Diana puts her shirt back on after cleaning off the spit up milk on her shoulder he goes back to being his quiet self. "Do you want to hold him now?" She asks going to sit next to Jimmy on the bed. "Uh yeah sure. Did you name them yet?" Diana gently hands me the baby we switch off her taking the little girl and I the boy. "Yeah we named him Alan James so we call him AJ. Her name is Alaina Diane we both wanted them to take one or both our names so we stuck with the classic fraternal twin names." The last time I held a baby was when Lindsey was born this didn't exactly take me back to that time but something about holding a baby it made the world seem less evil and violent especially now. "They really are beautiful. You did an amazing job, James. You really did they're both so tiny you guys are going to be here a couple days." I mumble that's when Diana takes notice of what I mumbled, "What did you say? Did you say we were going to be here a couple days?" I nod slightly preparing to hand Alaina back. "That's not gonna work; I mean I have to finish the nursery and have to finish the remodel on the house... I mean what about Diana she cant be here 24/7 she has to go home to take showers and get her rest too." Jimmy starts to panic I guess the hormones are still lingering. "Its fine, Jimmy you'll be fine. Listen, I have to talk to you guys about something and Johnny is going to kill me when he finds out I told you but it has to be done." Diana is now eating and James is staring me down. "I think I know what you're talking about and I already had a feeling. If that's the case then we are packing this up right now whether I have staples in my fucking body or not." He threatens holding AJ closer to himself as if I was the one about to take him from his hands. "James, you knew this was coming and so did you. Johnny is pretty much not letting anyone besides your family in and out of this place until you have to leave but until we know Alaina is alright you're kind of stuck here." I say shrugging not knowing how else to put it. More or less it was like ripping off a bandaid it was going to hurt temporarily but if I were any kind of friend I wouldn't hold this information from them. "Ok I get how I need to recover I get that part but what do you mean until Alaina is alright? What are you saying, Jessica?" Diana asks concerned. I don't know if I should tell them but if I didn't it wouldn't have been any better than when Rhea was killed. "John doesn't know if she will even survive the first few days. I mean yeah she is alive and doing ok now but he isn't sure how this will play out that's why he wants to keep you here so you can observe everything being done." I hand Alaina back to Jimmy who's now just glancing down at his daughter its clear that there's fear in his eyes because at any moment she could just pass away. "I need you to leave, Jess." I hear Diana mumble at first meanwhile Jimmy is in the background almost near tears because he knew it was possible, "Jessica... Just go... Please." He says getting angry. I back away heading to the door, "I'm sorry, Jimmy... I'm so sorry..." I can feel myself getting choked up but before I have a breakdown I have to leave. I walk outside the room and instantly regret what I had just done. Does it make me an evil person? Possibly. Did I seem like a bitch? Maybe. But if I wouldn't have said anything what would have been worse? Me withholding the truth or their newborn daughter dying in their arms?