Will I Lose You Too

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Few weeks had passed since Remus had moved in and Harry wasn't exactly a ray of sunshine, he was actually the complete opposite. Harry's nightmares subsided a little but he was at everyones necks so he was becoming more impatient and he could barely keep it together anymore. And on top of all of that his scar was giving him splitting headaches too he felt like a different person,like someone was trying to control him almost.

But Harry wasn't the only one not happy; a few days back Harry had woken up from one of his more terrifying nightmares and decided to walk it off under the invisibility cloak. He had taken these walks multiple times with no one knowing but this time he wasn't as quiet when he shut the door. But little did he know that Sirius had heard him and also he didn't think he would run into dementors that night either.

Harry had come across the dementors on his way back to Grimmuald place, he felt the icy chill of the dementors and all of the warmth of the summer air got sucked away. He had turned around and saw them heading straight for him, he pulled off his invisibility cloak and scrambled for his wand and shouted "Expecto Patronum" a silvery blue stag had erupted from the tip of his wand chasing the dementors away. He took off and sprinted for #12, he rushed inside and closed the door behind him. His heart was racing and he started panting. He didn't know how he was going to explain this to Sirius or what he was going to think.

Harry took some time to compose himself before he went back upstairs but on his way back he saw the kitchen light on and he knew there was no way of avoiding the inevitable. He walked into the kitchen and saw Sirius Reading a letter from the ministry of magic and then Sirius looked up at him. The look in Sirius' eyes made him feel worse than the dementors had made him feel.

"What the hell were you thinking Harry, you can't just go out and walk around at a time like this" he said almost yelling. "I-" Harry was cut off "And at night do you know how dangerous this is" Sirius was getting really heated. "I just needed to clear my head. I didn't know that was going to happen," Harry said, starting to get a little angry himself. "Harry do you have any idea what is happening to people out there?" Sirius was yelling "NO Sirius, I actually dont know whats happening to people no ones telling me anything!!" Harry yelled back. "That's no excuse Harry,YOU know he's out there and YOU know you're number one on his hit list, how am i supposed to protect you if i don't know where you are!!". "Maybe I don't always need you protecting me!!" Harry yelled, staring daggers into Sirius, but those were the wrong words to say. Sirius got up and slammed his hand on the table "GOD DAMMIT HARRY I CAN'T LOSE YOU TOO" Sirius walked out going back upstairs he needed to cool off. "Sirius I didn't-" but he gave up. He knew he couldn't do anything to help it now he didn't know that it would make Sirius feel that way.

Harry felt so angry he wasn't getting answers on Voldemort and what was happening and now Sirius was mad at him could anything worse happen. He went over to the table to look at what the note said.His eyes wided and he was in shock as he read it he couldn't believe what he was reading. He sat down and took off his glasses and put his head in his hands. Would the people at the ministry actually believe him and if not would he get expelled from one of the only places that felt like home.

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Back to present day
It had been a few days since Harry and Sirius had fought; they weren't talking to each other and the air was so tense between the two of them that anyone who walked into a room could feel it. It was easy for them to avoid each other because Molly had them always cleaning for the past week now. Remus ended up getting stuck in between but how could he not he was the only other person that lived there they dragged him into it against his will.

Sirius was upstairs cleaning with Remus while Harry was hel[[ping clean out the drawing room downstairs. Sirius was cleaning out a cabinet while Remus was on the other side of the room going through a box of stuff he found. Looking down at the box and going through it Remus asked out of nowhere "Are you ever going to talk to Harry?" Sirius froze staring into nothingness. Remus heard him stop and turned around with a look of concern "I will......eventually" Sirius resumed what he was doing. "Padfoot come on" Remus said tilting his head to the side but Sirius didn't say anything and continued what he was doing. Remus walked over to Sirius and pulled his hand away from the cabinet and took a small wooden box out of his hand. Sirius didn't look at him "Sirius you need to go and talk to him"
"I cant he doesn't want to talk to me" he said looking down. "How do you know that?" Remus said, trying to make eye contact with the shorter man "He won't even speak to me or even look at me". Remus squeezed Sirius' hand and Sirius looked up at him "You have to help him understand how you feel and you have to understand how he feels".

If Sirius was being completely honest with himself it was eating him up inside that him and Harry were not talking to each other. Harry meant the world to him he didn't want him to have a life like he did at the Dursleys. He wanted Harry to have a place where he could call home but this really wasn't that type of place either.

He must have gotten lost in his thoughts because the next moment Remus said "Padfoot are you ok" "Yeah i'm fine" he nodded his head looking into Remus' eyes. "I'll go talk to him when we get done up here" he kissed Remus on the lips "And thank you for helping me". "You're welcome" Remus smiled and gave him another kiss. "Now let's get this done so we can get out of this dingey room" Remus said walking back over to the box with a chuckle.
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Harry was in the drawing room cleaning Mrs.Weasley was not helping at all with his current mood and neither were his friends asking him questions. Every word that came out of Mrs. Weaslys mouth was just fueling his anger even further. He went over to the other side of the room to put distance between him and Mrs.Weasley as he was walking over the tapestry on the wall caught his eye.

He stood in front of it and read the words The Noble And Most Ancient House Of Black he looked around on the tapestry but he didnt see Sirius but for some reason. But he lost his train of thought when Sirius walked in and announced that lunch was ready and waiting downstairs.

"Im Starving" ron said walking out as Sirius moved out of the way "Please excuse him" said Hermione to Sirius while walking out "It's fine.'' When everyone had left Sirius walked over to who was still looking at the tapestry. Harry was so engulfed in looking at the tapestry he forgot his anger towards Sirius.

"You're not on here!" said Harry after scanning the bottom of the tree. "I used to be there," said Sirius, pointing at the small,round,charred whole in the tapestry that looks rather like a cigarette burn."My sweet old mother blasted me off when I left home-Kreachers quite fond of mumbling the story under his breath.

"You ran away from home?"
"when i was about Sixteen" said Siruis "I'd had enough".
"Where did you go?" asked Harry, staring at him. "Your dad's place," said Sirius."Your Grandparents were really good about it;they sort of adopted me as their second son. Yeah, I camped out at your Dads during the school Holidays,and then when i was seventeen i got a place of my own, My uncle Alphard a decent bit of gold-He's been wiped off here too, that's probably why -any way,after i looked after myself. I was always welcome at Mr. and Mrs. Potters for sunday lunch".

But...Why did you...?"
"Leave?" Sirius smiled bitterly and ran a hand through his long unkempt hair. "Because I hated the whole lot of them: my parents,with there pure blood mania,convinced that to make you a Black you were practically royal....my idiot brother soft enough to believe them...that's him."

Sirius jabbed his finger at the very bottom of the tree, at the name Regulus Black. Harry could see a date of death under it. "He was younger than me," said Sirius, "And a much better son, as I was constantly reminded".

"But he died," said Harry.
"Yeah," said Sirius "Stupid idiot.....He joined the Death Eaters".
"You're kidding!"
"Come on Harry, haven't you been in this house long enough to see what kind of wizarding daily they were". They stood there and talked for a little while longer talking about what happened to Regulus and the rest of his family.

Harry was looking up at Sirius "Sirius I'm sorry about the other night didn't mean to upset you" Harry said and looked at the tree "I had no idea". "Harry im who should be saying sorry i shouldn't have over reacted like that" said Sirius looked down " I... I just can't imagine losing anyone else that's important to me....especially you Harry" he looked back up at Harry and saw that he had tears in his eyes.

Harry didn't know what to think he had never had anyone say something like that to him before, he didn't know that Sirius cared about him so deeply. He felt tears in his eyes and just stared at Sirius then he ran forward and hugged him tightly Harry buried his head in Sirius' chest letting his tears fall.

Sirius wrapped his arms around Harry and closed his eyes tightly resting his chin on Harry's head.

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