Will I Lose You Too

Detetion done

Harry walks into the great hall not looking or feeling the best;he sits down next to Ron pulling out his homework. He noticed that Ron was also doing his homework.

Ron looked up "You look horrible mate" he said shoving food in his mouth "What'd she make you do?"

"She made me write lines till midnight" putting some food on his plate.

"Oh damn,for that long" Ron said, raising his eyebrows and looking back up at Harry from his homework.

Harry let out a sigh and gave a little nod "Why didn't you do Your homework" Harry said with a nod towards Ron.

"Ehh...just didn't feel like it," Ron said, shrugging his shoulders,scribbling on his paper.

Harry gave him a suspicious look but then he just shook it off "Did you get the planets down for Astronomy."

"I got some of the" Ron grabbed his paper and handed it to Harry "Here."

"Thanks" Harry grabbed the paper and started writing.

They see Hermione walk into the great hall and she walks and sits down by Harry. Harry was glad neither of them were looking at his hand too closely because he did not feel like having to explain that to them. He knew Hermionie would just push him to tell Dumbledore or Mcgonagoll but he knew that would make matters worse. Not like Dumboldore cared about him he just cared about his scar.

Harry knew his day was going to get worse with detention at the end of it but with none of his homework done it was going to be even worse. Sure enough it was; he had to explain to his teachers or just turn in the work late. But not everyone let him off easy which pushed him further into his bad mood.

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Harry went to detention that night,he picked up the quill that he had the night before as he wrote it dug into his skin. The pain was the same pain that he felt the night before but as he got further into the night the pain got worse and he started bleeding.

Harry got back to the Gryffindor common room he was exhausted and his hand was dripping blood and he still had all of his homework to do. Harry drops down his bag next to the table he pulls out the chair from under the table with a little force.

He throws himself down in the chair letting out a sigh,running his hands through his hair. He throws his glasses down on the table "Fuck" Harry puts the heels of his hands over his eyes,with his elbows on the table. Harry looked up at the ceiling taking a deep breath,he always felt so alone now doesn't want it to be like this forever.  Then he thought of Sirius and how he was alone for all those years is this what it felt like for him? He pushed his thoughts to the side, bent down and picked up his homework out of his bag and got to work.

As the night dragged Harry started getting more tired and he was a little over half way done with his homework. When he finally finished it was about 3:45 he grabbed his things and treched up the stairs at a slow pace,he plopped down on his bed face first and fell asleep instantly.
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Harry went to detention the next night he was getting very tired of going to detention every night and his hand was getting worse. With the first stroke of his pen he felt a sharp pain and started to bleed.  He was wondering if he hated Umbridge more with her fake little cough more than he hated Snape and his greasy hair.

He got out way earlier than he usually did it was around 7pm and was he ready to get out of there. As he was walking through the classroom he held his bleeding hand in his robes trying to stop the blood. He was on his way to the common room he found Ron hiding with his broomstick.