i've been walking back and forth, i invited kay over. i felt so guilty because i was going behind sarah's back. adrian started crying and i fed him the bottle sarah left, i heard knocking on the door. i opened the door and it was kay
"hey kay" i said
"hey" she smiled
we walked to the couch and i was still carrying adrian
"so you weren't kidding when you said you actually had a child with your girlfriend" she said
"well why would i lie about my girlfriend being pregnant" i said
"why don't you put the baby down and we can just talk" she played with my necklaces
"let me just put him to sleep"i said as i got up
i rocked him to sleep and i put him in his crib. i walked back with kay and she was doing her hair.
"so why did you ask to come over?" i sat down
she started kissing me.
"kay i have a girlfriend" i said
"just shut up and kiss me. don't tell your girlfriend" she kissed me again
i couldn't stop, i haven't even kissed sarah in months. i was kissing kay for the longest time. after a few minutes, i felt water on me. i looked up and it was sarah. she ran to the room and i tried following her
"babe" i said as i got up
"where are you going!" kay grabbed my hand
"kay please leave" i said
"why just leave her" she got up
"kay just go" i said as i tried not to shout at her
"fine i'll go" she rushed out the door
i rushed to the room and sarah was packing her clothes.
"baby i'm sorry" i turned her around to face me
"zach please go away"she said
"let me explain to you!" i said
"i don't want to fucking hear it!" she put the luggage's on the floor and she picked adrian up from his crib
"don't leave please!" i grabbed her arm
"zach please let go" she said
"please don't go!" my voice cracked
she slammed the door shut and walked down the hallway. when she shut the door. i hit the door with my fist and i leaned on the door. i never cried but she left. i hurt her. i ran downstairs and i see her car she's still there. i stop at the entrance of the lobby, i start running to her car but then she started the car and drove off. i stayed in her parking spot for a while. tears running down my face. i walk back up to my apartment when i get a phone call
"hello" i said
"hey man we are at the studio do you want to come?"
it was jonah
"sorry jonah i don't want to go, i just want to be alone" i said as my voice cracked
"why what's wrong?"
"nothing i'm just really tired today" i said as i tried not to breakdown in the middle of the lobby
"well i'll come over in a few hours just to check up on you, sarah and adrian"
"yea that's fine" i said as i tried to hang up first
i walked up the stairs and i went into the apartment and it was so empty and quiet. i'm not going to hear sarah's loud laughing and talking anymore. i'm not going to hear adrian crying and giggling anymore. it's just going to be so quiet. tears were running down my face. i threw a glass candle to the ground and leaned on the door. i completely lost sarah. i walked to the kitchen and i went to the mini bar i had in the pantry and i took a bottle of jack daniels and just sat on the floor and grabbed a cup and filled a little bit of it and drank it but then i wanted to spit it out, how did jonah buy this for me and think i would like it. i just kept drinking it and it was still gross but i had tears running down my face, i drank half the bottle and i ran my fingers through my hair and i just realized i made the worst mistake of my life
me: baby
me: let me explain please
sarah🥰: seen
i let her down, i hurt her. i only wanted her and adrian and only them. we were a perfect family. i've known sarah since i was 17 and she was 16. i completely let her down. i had my knees against my chest, my arms were draped across my knees and i had my phone right next to me. i looked at my phone and all i saw was 8:43pm and my wallpaper of sarah and adrian
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it was a picture she sent me when i was at the studio and they looked so cute. i told her when i got home that the picture was my new lock screen and she got so happy, her face literally lit up. my old lock screen was the picture of the harry styles concert we went to for our birthday. i never want to change it. i heard a knock on the door but i didn't even bother to get up.
"ITS OPEN" i said
"zach?"
"i'm in here" i slurred
jonah came running to the kitchen and sat next to me.
"ok what's wrong?" jonah sat next to me
"me and sarah broke up" i sat up straight
"WHAT?" he said
"we broke up" i said
"why?" he asked
"because i invited kay and she was all over me and then she came home and she saw me and broke up with me and took adrian with her" i said
jonah told me it was wrong of me to bring kay over and i told him i knew it was a bad idea. he told me everything was going to be ok. jonah said that he had to go after an hour of talking to me and after he left i was all alone and i just wanted this whole day to be over so i just took a shower and before i went to bed and i checked for sarah's socials but she blocked me on her insta and twitter and unadded me on snapchat, and i'm guessing she blocked my number. i just went to sleep so this whole day can be over. i wish all of this was a dream
