Let Me Be Your Cure (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 23

CHAPTER 23

Tragic

"WHAT'S THE SCORE between you and Mr. Griffith?" asked Micah while we were having a brunch.

"Score? Are we playing some games na kailangan naming magkaroon ng score?" naguguluhang ako.

"Oh come on Praise, what's your relationship with him? Are you two dating? Nanligaw ba siya sa 'yo? Sinagot mo ba? Ganoon ang tanong ko."

Ganoon ba?

Inisip ko lahat ng pakikipag-ugnayan ko kay Chaz. What's really our relationship? Napapatanong din ako. I don't know if we are dating. I don't know if what he's doing is a form of courting. And lastly, I never said the word yes. So I don't really know.

I won't ever know a thing unless you give me the confirmation. Confirmation of what you are doing.

"Does he really like me?" I asked.

Tumigil siya sa pag-kain at tinitigan ako nang hindi makapaniwalang tingin. "What are you saying? Hindi pa ba klaro sa 'yo ang nararamdaman no'ng tao?"

Bumuntong-hininga ako. "Hindi kasi gano'n kadali, Micah. I get that he likes me pero hanggang saan at hanggang kailan ang pagkagustong iyon? Iyon ang punto ko. If I have to look for a man, I'll look for someone who will stay with me even though he knows about what happened to me. Who doesn't judge and who doesn't care about my past. Someone na makakasama ko hanggang sa pagkamatay ko."

"Oh my god Praise, you don't need to look for a man. Let him look for you. And isn't the man you're looking for is already there for you? Isn't that Mr. Griffith that you just described?"

"Chaz... he's a good man; too much for me. I think I don't deserve him."

"And in what matter makes you think that you don't deserve him?"

"Micah, hindi mo ba maintindihan na gamit na ako? Gamit na gamit na ako. Kahit sabihin ng mga tao na hindi sila nandidiri sa 'kin, nandidiri pa rin ako sa sarili ko. I always felt disgusted at hindi iyon mabubura sa isipan ko. Chaz deserves more. He is really a good man. I don't think I could be selfish for him. It's not that I don't deserve him, it is he doesn't deserve someone like me."

"Oh god." Tumayo siya sa pagkakaupo at pinuntahan ako. She wrapped me in her arms, hugging me tightly.

"Ito ang tatandaan mo, Praise. Hindi mo kailangang manirahan sa iyong nakaraan. Kaya nga mayroong bukas pa kasi kailangan nating mag-move forward. We don't need to be stuck on one occurrence of our lives. We all are given the chance to move on. Just because you're raped, doesn't mean you don't deserve to be loved. Give yourself the chance to be loved too, Praise. Don't be afraid. If he hurts you, I'll be the one who will block everyone... anyone... any man... who will come to your life. You can count on me. At saka...."

Pinalo niya ako sa braso. "Binigyan mo na ng motibo ang tao saka ka pa aatras?"

Napangiti ako. "Thank you, maka-diyos. I'll think about it."

Kinalas niya ang yakap sa 'kin at gulat na tumingin sa akin. "What the heck?! Did I hear it right? You called me maka-diyos?"

"Uhum?" I nodded.

"Omg, I missed it!" she shrieked.

I should ask Chaz about what he really feels about me. No sugar coating and no sweet lies; I want to know the truth.

WITH CHAZ, I feel happy. I never expected to be this happy, not from someone who is not a family member.

Lagi niya akong nilalambing na ginagatungan ko naman ng panunukso kaya ang ending, tampuhan.