Who's the Clown now? || Hisoka x Reader ||

Chapter 25

Chapter 25
*caution, smut ahead, well kind of, like it includes sexual tension and description and stuff but idk would you call this smut? Or is this lemon? Is there a difference? I dont know, and frankly i dont care, i just hope y'all enjoy it hshsh lmao wtf am i even writing*

Bruh. Okay sorry i felt like i should write shit here idk. HAVE FUN HDGHDGH

My room. Closed doors. Blinded windows. Two beds, pushed together to make one. A shower. A floor. The dominant feeling of lust and sensation between us. It was the ideal setting. He had me under his control. Back against the wall, legs spread around his torso, him hovering above me. His suit was almost opened, the last button slowly loosening itself as I pushed him off me. He looked at me in wonder and confusion, when I dragged him towards the bed. The tiny sweat pearls on his forehead glimmered in the faint moonlight passing through the windows.
His tongue ran over his lips, while his eyes had the expression in them similar to ones of a tigers hunting his pray. The gold in them glimmered, as I threw him on the bed, crawling over him. One by one I undressed him. His jacket, his tie, his pants, his shirt, his underwear, his shoes.  Everything. The dress I wore was simple. Casual. And yet it left him in crude excitement when I loosened the zipper to take it off. His member grew harder, as I now dominated the sex play we both had going on. I kissed him all over, making my way from his mouth to his dick. Slowly teasing him with my tongue, I made him want me more and more. Sucking his dick slowly, and then increasing his speed, I tied his body down with invisible threads. He couldn't move, all he did was moan and cry out screams of pleasure. I had him right where I wanted. My tongue wrapped itself around him, and I felt him growing bigger inside my mouth. That's when I stopped. I stood up, and left the bed. "What- hey what are you doing?" He stumbled, wanting to finish as quickly as possible. I laughed, standing up, and smiled. "Payback is a bitch. Thats what you get for leaving me like that" I chuckle, not being visibly mad, but still loving to see a helpless clown like him on my bed, under my control. I unzip my dress fully, take it off, and enter the bathroom in underwear. I turn back once more, only to see his face. The shock and annoyance written in his featured was priceless.

A few days passed. We talked, fucked, and talked more. He explained his reasoning for leaving. Everything was going quite good. In fact, it was going great. Too great for what was about to come. It was as we were having dinner in my room, right after a heated make out session, when I brought it up. "Hey, umm, Hisoka?" I said, after a long pause of chewing. He send me a confused look, as he set down his fork and finished his meal. His raised eyebrow encouraged me to continue. "I" Okay stay calm now. Collect your thoughts. "So. I know about your revenge plan. I also know the reason for you being as vindictive as you are. And-" I paused. I didn't know this would end up being so hard. "I'm the reason for it all." I finish my thought process. He's stared at me for a second too long, before he cleared his voice and said: "babe. It's definitely not you. It's what your family did to mine, but not what you personally did. You have no fault in this. Don't blame yourself." He got up and walked over to me, but I pushed him away. I don't know why I started raising my voice, but when I did he was definitely caught of guard. "It's me. It's all me. And I should've told you for fucks sake." I said, close to shout, at him, walking away, but he grabbed me by by wrist and pulled me close. "What are you talking about?" His soft voice made me wanna start crying. Why do I care so much? So what if he found out. I don't care... "I-" I stuttered. Why am I stuttering? "I killed him. I killed your father." I dont look back up at him. I wanna run away. Fuck my emotions for getting the better of me. Why did I have to fall in love with the most unfortunate guy alive. 

I walk out the door leaving him standing alone in my room. I hold back tears. He grew to be quite special to me. I wanted to keep him.

And I would.

A large arm grabbed my hand and pulled me back into the corridor right in front of my apartment. He held me close, hugging my slightly trembling body. I stumble, and now officially fail to hold back a well of tears with a stumble of a apologies. "I knew....*cry* who he...was and" I let out a big sob before I half whisper half cry out "I knew he had a child. I also knew who his child was and- I know how you will feel about me know and you havealltherighttohatemeandIshouldleaveyoualonenow-" I wanted to continue, when the sudden connection of his lips on mine stoped the endless blabbering. "Sugar..." he whispered. It was quiet. Sugar was nothing he usually says, so I couldnt but crack a small smile before falling back into quiet sobbing. "I knew your family killed him. I knew someone did it. And I will still avenge what they did. But I won't avenge my father. He." He stopped talking for a while before he continued, still gently rubbing my back. "He had all the right to end up the way did." His voice wasnt harsh, but controlled. "And im not angry at you for killing him. You didn't do it because you wanted to did you? Your father instructed you to. I know all about what happened" was the last thing he said before he pulled me in for another kiss, but then left me standing in front of my own door.

It felt like a couple. We felt like a couple. A couple of maniacs that is. What on earth was I doing. He makes me emotional as fuck. And horny, but to be frank thats nothing unusual. Welp. I guess if we were a couple, we should at least be badass.

I tell him that, only a few days later, at which he laughs maniacally. He smirks, and decides to agree full on, speaking in the same lustful raspy tone as always. "Oh. Okay my love, we're settled on this now. You wont have me leave you for quite sometime, so be aware that I will stick by your side." He licks his tongue. And I kiss him because I can. And because I want to. He's mine now. I tell him that in a quite whisper between numerous kisses. He smirks and pulls me back intk another heated kiss before whispering back:

"I'm so in love with you"

(A/N) ...i know im slow with updates, and im really sorry, but currently i don't know how to continue this story and im really lost :/ if anyone has ideas, pls dm me hahah. I hope youre till enjoying the story. Constructive criticism is always wanted by the way :)
ON THAT NOTE:

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