Helpless And Helpful (A Pippa Soo Fanfic)

Chapter 4; The Audition

Jess's POV (again ik sorry lmao)

We drove to the small theatre where the auditions were and the reality of the situation was beginning to settle in; I was about to audition for a real musical. My heart began to speed up as we walked into the building, but slowed down a bit when I saw Jazzy. "Hi you guys! I hope it's okay that I'm here, but I wanted to support Jess!" She hugged me and my heart was almost steady again. Almost. "Hi Jasmine." I said, my voice very slightly quivering. We walked over to the desk and Pippa signed me in. "Please head to the room on the far left and take a seat. You will be called when it's your turn." The man said in a monotone voice. "Thanks!" Pippa said and we walked over to the room. We opened the door and there must've been about 20 people in there; the small room was packed like sardines. "Jesus. There's so many people here." Jasmine said as we tried to squeeze past to get a seat. We eventually sat down and my heart began to speed up as people started getting called. I was shaking and sweating and my mouth was so dry. I grabbed Jasmine and Pippa's hands to try and steady myself. It didn't work. "Jess are you okay?" Pippa asked. I shook my head and got up and ran to what I hoped was the toilets. I opened the door and sank onto the floor, hyperventilating. My vision went blurry and I could barley hear anything, but I felt Pippa put her arm round me and Jasmine grab my hand. I felt tears streaming down my face as I tried to breath. "Jess, you're gonna be okay." Jasmine said. I slightly heard my name being called for my audition, and that made me begin to shake more. I couldn't breathe. I was sat in a puddle of my tears as Pippa and Jasmine wrapped their arms around me. The last thing I remember was Jasmine saying, "Jess, breathe with me. You can do this."

When I came to, I was still laying on the bathroom floor of the auditions place. My head was in Jazzy's lap but I couldn't see Pippa anywhere. "Oh thank god. Jess, can you hear me?" I nodded. "Just about." I mumbled as I attempted to sit up. Jasmine helped me up and wrapped her arm around me as we leaned against the wall. I rested my head on her shoulder as I woke up properly. "Where's Pippa?"  I asked. "She's gone to speak to the casting people about pushing back your audition until tomorrow. If you still want to, that is." I looked up at her. "I do. I really do, but what if this happens again?" She turned to properly face me and took my hands in hers. "Jess, can you explain to me what made you so nervous. You had a panic attack, and I want to help you understand what caused it and we can work through it." My god she's as angel, I thought. "Just the thought of having to sing for a big casting director. I was perfectly fine until I entered the building. And also. What if he says I'm not good?" I said, and a few tears began to spill. "And what if this happens again." I whispered, my voice breaking. Jasmine wiped my tears away. "Me and Pippa will be there with you the entire time. If you get worried, just look over to us, and pretend we're the only people in the room. You'll be okay, I promise. And if you do have another panic attack, that's okay. We will help you through it, one step at I time." I threw my arms over her shoulders and hugged her. "Thank you." I whispered. She hugged me back and we stayed that way for a little while. 

Pippa burst in the door. "Jess! Thank fuck you're awake." I giggled. I had never heard her swear before. She sat down with me and Jasmine and said, "If you still want to audition, you can come back tomorrow. The man said we can come a little earlier when there are less people, if you want." I smiled at her and nodded. She joined in mine and Jasmine's hug and said, "I'm glad you're okay Jess."  "Me too." said Jazzy. 

758 words :(

A/N IM SORRY THIS CHAPTER IS SO SHORT!! i'll make sure the next chapter is at least a thousand words :)