Helpless And Helpful (A Pippa Soo Fanfic)

Chapter 15; Therapy

Jess's POV

Pippa and I walked down to the car. I was still blushing and slightly smiling from when Eliza kissed me, but I hoped Pippa couldn't see it. We got down to the car and got in. I connected my phone and shuffled all my music. The first song to come on was Say No To This so we both sung that at the top of our voices. "If you pay, you can stayyyy!" I sung as loud as I could. "Jesus Jess! That was incredible!" Pippa said. I may seem happy, but inside I was terrified. Today was my first therapy session with Jenna and although I knew I needed therapy, I was still nervous. I had a terrible headache and I was shaking although I think I was hiding it well enough. I wasn't. Pippa pulled over. "What are you doing? We're not here yet?" I said. My voice was shaking. "You're not okay are you?" She said softly. I looked away and shook my head. Immediately tears started pouring and I started to hyperventilate. I couldn't see or hear anything very well, but I slightly heard Pippa saying my name. I felt her climb over to me and pull me into her arms. I couldn't breathe and I felt like I was dying. It was the worst thing I've ever experienced. "Jess can you hear me?" I tried to nod my head but I had no control over what was going on. "Jess I know it's hard but you have to breathe okay? Come on baby you can do it." I couldn't. As hard as I tried I couldn't. I felt like I was trapped and I would never be able to move ever again. Pippa grabbed my hand and looked me straight in the eyes. "Baby breathe. You can do this. In out. In out." I still couldn't do it. My heart sped up and I was shaking so much it looked like I was having a seizure. I couldn't see anything anymore, my vision was too blurred with tears. I just wanted whatever was going on to end. "Pippa. Help." I managed to gasp between sobs. She pulled me close and tried to stop my shaking. "I'm here Jess. Look at me." She wiped my tears away and I looked right at her. "Keep looking at me okay. Copy my breathing." I tried. I really tried. I breathed in. And out. "That's it. Okay Jess I want you to grab my hands." I reached out shakily and grabbed her hands. She held me as close as she could. "Pippa I can't breathe." I whispered. The last thing I heard was Pippa on the phone. "Jaz get here now. Bring Eliza. We're at-" I blacked out.

Jasmine's POV

"I'm on my way. What the hell is wrong?" I could hear Jess sobbing in the background. "Jess had a panic attack. She just passed out in my arms. It was the worst one she's had Jaz. She couldn't breathe as all." I gasped. "Okay I'll be as quick as I can." I hung up and shouted for Eliza who was in Jess's room. "Eliza we need to leave quick. Grab you shit let's go." Eliza ran out looking worried. "What's wrong?" I explained everything to her as we walked to my car. "Oh my god." She was crying now and so was I. I drove as quick as I could and got there in 10 minutes. I parked just behind Pippa and me and Eliza jumped out. I saw Jess passed out in Pippa's arms through the window, Pippa sobbing. "Pippa it will be okay. This has happened before, she always wakes up." She shook her head. "No Jaz this was different." Just then Eliza ran up to us. She gasped and began to sob. "Oh my god Jess." She sank to the floor. "Eliza it's okay. Go and sit in my car alright? Jess is gonna be just fine." She got up and walked over to my car. 

We waited 10 minutes, debating what to do. I went to my car to see Eliza, but then I heard Pippa. "JAZ!" She shouted. I looked over to see Jess slightly moving. I ran to them and knelt down. "Jess baby can you hear me?" She nodded ever so slightly.  "Thank god. Okay Jess are you able to sit up?" She tried, but then sank back into Pippa's arms. "That's okay. At least you're awake." Pippa said. "Is Eliza here?" She mumbled. "ELIZA!" I shouted. She came running out of the car and when she saw Jess she smiled. "Jess you're okay! I was so worried." She said while crying. Jess struggled to sit up again, but this time managed it. She slowly stood up out of the car but sank into Eliza's arms as she stood up. "I love you so much Jess." Eliza whispered. Jess pulled her into a kiss, and I couldn't help but smile. "I love you too Eliza. I'm sorry for scaring you. I'm sorry for scaring all of you." "It's okay Jess. I know this isn't really the right time, but we have 10 minutes until your appointment. Now if you're not up for going we can reschedule, but it's up to you." Pippa said. "I want to go. I need to go. But I want Eliza with me." She said. Pippa nodded. "Okay, you two hop in the back then. Jaz are you coming?" I shook my head. "Ant says he misses me and has a date night planned." Pippa smiled. "I'll text you when it's over and let you know how it went." Jess said. "Thank you. I love you all." I said and walked back to my car. 

Eliza's POV

I got in the back of Pippa's car, Jess still holding my hand. When she got in, instead of sitting in the other seat, she crawled over to me and sat as close as she possible could. "This isn't very safe you know." I started playing with her hair as Pippa drove. "I'm always safe when I'm with you." She smiled up at me and I basically melted. "I love you so fucking much." I whispered. "I heard that Eliza." Pippa said. She didn't seem angry though, so I laughed. "Sorry."

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its 2.30am so im sorry for this sucky chapter skdksjb