Helpless And Helpful (A Pippa Soo Fanfic)

Chapter 21; JESS!

you guys are not ready oml i think im gonna cry writing this chapter

Jess's POV

The next few weeks were hell. Kayla would torment me whenever she could. On Wednesday, I was walking out of Math and she came up behind me and pushed me over. I fell in front of everyone; it was so embarrassing. She asked Samantha for my new number because she 'wanted to be friends' and of course stupid Samantha gave it to her, so she'd been texting me all week. I ignored them as best I could, but some were really hard to ignore. She sent me death threats, saying she would kill me, saying she would kill everyone I loved. I stayed up crying every night, getting barely any sleep. I was getting behind in school because I couldn't focus. I kept forgetting lines at rehearsals. My life was falling to pieces and as much as I tried I couldn't do anything about it. For 4 days straight, I cut everyone off and sat in my room alone. Pippa would bring me food and try to talk occasionally, and Jasmine had come to see me a few times, but I just didn't want to get out of bed. Eliza texted me every day to make sure I was okay, and I always said "I'm fine." even though I really wasn't. When I finally got out of bed and went back to school, Kayla was even worse than before. Her locker was right next to mine and Eliza's, so every morning she decided to push me against the wall to get to hers. I just kind of ignore it now. Until one day when everything got worse.

I saw Kayla walk up to me out of the corner of my eye and I got ready to be shoved against the wall. "Oh hi Jess." She said, placing a hand on my back and pushing me. "Kayla why do you feel the need to do that every morning? It pisses me off." She closed her locker and looked me right in the eyes. "Because I want to." She pushed me again before walking off. I held back the tears and waited for Eliza to arrive. She was normally here at the same time as me, but today she was late. I texted her and said "Hey where are you you're normally here by now?" She replied seconds later. "Sorry Jess I forgot to tell you earlier. I'm sick." Great, I thought, I have to deal with Kayla alone today. "It's okay. Get well soon, I love you." I put my phone away and walked to class. My first lesson was English, and I sat quite far away from Kayla, so hopefully she wouldn't bother me. I walked in and sat down, getting out my things. "Miss, should I move next to Jess today because Eliza's not here and Jess is all alone?" I heard her stupid voice say from the back of the classroom. "That's a lovely idea Kayla!" The teacher said. I heard movement and then Kayla was right next to me. "Aw is your stupid little girlfriend sick?" I wanted to punch her but obviously I couldn't. I ignored her and began writing notes. Throughout the entire lesson, Kayla kept leaning over and pushing me, causing me to smudge my work. She was also kicking me under the table. For a 15 year old, everything she was doing was super immature. Then she went and did something incredibly stupid. "Miss it's very cold in here can you make it any hotter?" Many other voices agreed, so she turned on the heater. She smirked at me. To a normal person, that wouldn't seem like a big deal. But for me it was. I was wearing a massive jumper to cover the scars all up my arms, and I was beginning to over heat. I was sweating like mad, and it got to the point where it was so unbearable I had to take my jumper off. I quickly put my arms under the table to try and hide them, but Kayla was too quick. She smirked at me and then proceeded to shout, "Miss! Jess's arms are covered in scars!" I turned a bright red as everyone stared at me. "Let me see Jess." I shook my head. "Jess I have to take a look or I will send you to the principles office." I reluctantly moved my arms to show her and she gasped at the sight. "Jess! What is that?!" She shouted. Many other kids rushed over to see, but I crossed my arms, hoping they could no longer see. What kind of teacher does that? That's fucked up. "Jess did you do this to yourself?" I shook my head. "I have a cat." I whispered. "No she doesn't! I've been to her house!" Kayla cried. I looked Kayla dead in the eyes. Fuck her. Fuck everything. I was done. 

I grabbed my bag and jumper and ran out of the classroom. I ran as quick as I could out of the school and to the park. The tears in my eyes were clouding my vision, but I managed to get to a park bench and sit down. I was shaking and my breathe was slowing and I was sobbing. I tried to breathe like Jenna had taught me and that helped slightly. By the time I could breathe again, an hour had passed and school was finished. I pulled out my phone and saw 3 texts from Kayla. I didn't bother reading them because I knew she would threaten me or something. Pippa wasn't picking me up today so I slowly got up and walked home. I had rehearsal later tonight. Without Eliza. Just thinking about her not being there made me tear up, but I held back the sobs. 

"Have fun Jess! I have a show tonight so Jasmine's picking you up after." Pippa shouted as she dropped me off. I walked into the theatre, nervous. Tonight was like any other rehearsal, except for 2 things; Eliza wasn't there. And it was gonna end a little differently than usual. I walked up to the stage and put on a fake smile, ignoring Samantha like usual. But that became difficult when we had to practise our song together. "Okay, Jess and Sam! Places!" I took a deep breathe and walked up to the stage. "Hi Sam." My voice shook. She didn't respond, only gave me a death stare. Great, I thought, Kayla's made her hate me. We ran through the song twice before we had a break, but Sam pulled me aside after. "You know Jess, you have zero talent. Kayla told me about the play you did at your last school. She said you were shit, and I don't doubt it. You should drop out of this right now, or Kayla and I will make sure you do by the end of the week." She walked away and I stood there in shock. She was right. I had zero talent. "Er, Mike I'm just gonna go use the bathroom real quick." He nodded and I grabbed my phone and ran upstairs. But I ran straight past the bathroom door.

 TW!!

Eliza was sick, Pippa was performing. I clicked on Jasmine's contact and it rang 3 times before she picked up. "Hi Jess. Am I late? Oh my god did I get the time wrong?" I continued to run up the stairs until I reached the door to the roof. I pushed it open and sat on the floor. "No Jas you're fine. I just need to talk." I told her about the whole day. From Kayla at school to Sam just now. I ended it with a few words I never wanted to say. "And Jas I just wanted to say goodbye. Thank you for all you've done for me, tell Pippa and Eliza I love them." I didn't know if she heard me because I said it so quietly. "Jess what? No Jess oh my god. I'm getting my keys I'll be five minutes stay on the phone with me okay?" "I'm sorry Jasmine." My voice cracked in the middle as I hung up the phone. I stood up and just cried for a bit, letting everything out before letting everything go. I walked closer and closer the the edge. Closer and closer to the end. I was finally going to be free from everything. I stood up and the ledge, letting the final sobs escape before I jumped. I whispered, "I'm sorry." Before moving one foot of the edge.

"JESS!" 

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ANOTHER CLIFFHANGER IM SORRY. anyways im crying rn. fuck you kayla. fuck sam. new chapter out tomorrow.