Helpless And Helpful (A Pippa Soo Fanfic)

Chapter 9; One In The Morning

Jess's POV

Me and Pippa got home and I went straight to bed. "Jess." Pippa called after me. "Yeah?" I said. "Promise me you won't hurt yourself, okay?" I walked back over to Pippa and hugged her. "I won't." She kissed the top of my head and I walked over to my room, leaving the door slightly open. I got changed and ready for bed and then started watching Netflix on my phone. I was watching Brooklyn Nine Nine for hours, and before I knew it, it was 1am. I turned my phone off ready to go to bed when I got a notification. I looked at it and it was a message from an unknown number. When I read what it said, my heart shattered and tears started to pour. The message read, "You really think running away would stop us from finding your number? Jess you're so stupid. Everyone here wants you to kill yourself. In fact we even started the Jess hate club." She attached a photo of her and about 10 other girls standing in front of a sign that read "We hate Jess." I threw my phone across the room, hoping Pippa didn't hear. I got up and ran towards the bathroom, sinking onto the cold floor sobbing. I got up and looked at myself in the mirror, tears still running down my cheeks; That seems to happen everyday. My breathes grew shallower and louder, but I put my hand over my mouth and hoped that Pippa couldn't hear me. *** Slowly, I reached into the draw and pulled out a small blade. My hand was shaking uncontrollably as I slowly dragged the blade across my wrist. I let the tears fall but I didn't feel anything. I was so numb. Before I could stop myself I had 10 more lines cut into my skin.*** I hadn't realised how loud my sobbing was until I heard Pippa throw open the door and gasp as she saw me crouched in the corner. "JESS! Oh my god." She grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my arm as she sat next to me. "Pippa I'm so sorry." I said between sobs. "Jess baby you have nothing to Apologise for. It's okay. We'll get you cleaned up and I'll help you through it." She grabbed some bandages from the cupboard and placed them on my arm after carefully cleaning it. "Jess, can I ask if something happened to cause this? You promised you wouldn't, did something change." I got up to get my phone and when I returned I handed it to Pippa, open on the messages. She gasped as she read. After she read them, she silently turned my phone off, put it down and hugged me. 

We stayed that way for a while. "Do you mid if I call Jazzy? She said if something happened to call her, but I'll only do it if you're comfortable." I nodded and she got up to go call her. "Wait Pippa. Take these." I handed her the blades and she left. I could hear Pippa's side of the conversation. "Hey Jas, I know it's late but something happened with Jess. Jazzy calm down! She's okay, but she got some more messages from the bitches and she..." Pippa didn't finish her sentence, so I'm assuming Jazzy knew what she meant. "Okay, see you in a bit." She hung up the phone ad walked back into the bathroom. "Jazzy's on her way. Do you want to move into your room or stay here?" I was too tired to get up, so I told Pippa I wanted to stay. I was staring at a small blood stain on the floor, and when Pippa noticed she cleaned it up. "Do you want to talk?" I shook my head. "Not right now. Maybe later." 

Jazzy arrived 10 minutes later. "Jess! Pippa!" She called. "We're in Jess's bathroom." I heard Jazzy run across the apartment. She pushed open the door and gasped at the sight of us on the floor. "Jess oh my god. Those fucking girls. I will beat them up if you give me their addresses, no joke." I laughed a tiny bit as Jazzy sat down next to me. She wrapped her arms around me and I put my head on her shoulder, Pippa still holding my hands. We sat in silence for a bit before I drifted off to sleep.

Jazzy's POV

When Pippa called me, my heart dropped. And when I saw Pippa and Jess crawled into the corner, it shattered. I don't understand how anyone could say things like that and just not feel guilty.

Jess drifted off to sleep in my arms about 20 minutes after I got there. Pippa and  were still awake, barely, but we were still awake. "Pips." I whispered. "Yeah?" I nodded down at Jess, fast asleep. "Should we take her to her bed?" Pippa nodded. I picked her up, which was difficult cos she's 15, and tried not to wake he up while I carried her to her room. I set her down on the bed and pulled the blankets over her, kissing her head before I left. Pippa and I left her room and went to go sit on the couch. Luckily we didn't have rehearsal tomorrow so we didn't need to be up super early. "Jas, I'm worried about her. What am I going to do?" Pippa said crying. "Pips, you have taken care of her so well. She loves you. The most you can do is the there for her, help her, give her space when she needs it. Don't worry, I'm here to help whenever you need me." I hugged Pippa tight as she cried and I began to cry too. "It seems like all we do is cry lately." I said. Pippa laughed quietly. "Jazzy." She said suddenly sitting up. "What if she tries to-" She didn't need to finish. I knew what she was going to say so I cut her off. "Pips. We can't think about that. And she won't. She knows that she can talk to either of us, so if she ever feels like she wants to do that, she'll tell us I'm sure of it." I replied, and gave Pippa a quick kiss on the cheek. She fell asleep in my arms moments later, and I soon followed.

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okay so i need help. i feel like this tea is a bit TOO much, so lmk in the comments if its too over the top. i enjoy writing this because i can slightly relate to some of these situations, making it easier for me to write about them, however it might be a bit much?? idk lmao. anyways have a good day <3