Just Our Secret - Gruvia

Begging for an inaccurate yes

"Maybe it was a false positive?" 

Levy attempts to put me in the bright side while we both lay on my bed, exasperated, drinking decaf tea. I lay flat, starring at my warmly lit ceiling, while Levy was sat up. 

"Yeah, because those are common and I've been puking for no reason and my period went on a hiatus." Sarcasm is a form of answer that I rarely use, only when in the cause of threat. 

I hadn't mentioned who the father was, luckily she respected that. I may need help on finding a way to tell him, though. 

"Look, I have another test in my room which is a different brand, if you take it again then you'll know for sure." She places the mug on my bedside table and heads into her room to retrieve the mess. 

She's right, if I take it again I'll know the real answer. Pregnancy tests and their reliability is completely pathetic. Levy comes back shortly after, handing me a clearblue brand box. This one determining how far along I was. 

My foot taps with anticipation as I await my results behind the closed door in the bathroom. Levy joins me as I let the two minutes pass by. I turn my head as soon as it was ready, I couldn't face the truth. I knew the truth. I didn't want to admit it. She notices I was hesitant to peep at the result, so she goes to retrieve it. Levy glances at the test, her eyes remain on it for five seconds until showcasing it. Guess I do have to see it for myself...

3+ Weeks

Not really that helpful, at least I knew it was definitely positive. Gray and I had sex six weeks ago, and he was the last man I had sex with, so all the evidence is right in front of me yet I still don't want to believe it. 

"Juv, it's okay, you have options remember?"

It's great that I have options, although deciding them is the worst. If I was a teenager, still in school I'd most likely not go through with it. But I'm nearly twenty one. I have a part time job, a promising education, I think I could pull it off. It's just Gray I'm worried about. 

Levy's hand rubs up and down my left arm, her thumb wiping the new arrival of tears away. I've never been riddled with so many emotions in my life; I'm confused, angry, some what depressed and perhaps a tiny bit hyped? 

"If you don't mind me asking, do you know who the father is?" 

I nod, but only keeping my lips shut. I trust Levy with everything, but I think Gray should be the first to know. Or even the only to. I need his opinions before I can go and make any rash decisions. I don't think there'd be any harm in telling her the story, though. My back hits the wall, I let my body slide down the tiles, as my body touches the floor I make myself as small as possible, bundling myself up in my own arms. Levy follows and sits crossed legged in front of me, gently patting my knees for reassurance. 

"Okay, I'm not gonna tell you who it is, but..." accepting the truth, I inhale with depth, "last week of summer, we both had a bad day, and went to each other for comfort. It ended up going too far, and we both agreed it'd be a one night thing, and neither of us would speak of it again. Unless we were desperate for more. We haven't hung out since then, and have only engaged in light conversation."

_ _ _

Again, I lay awake at night. Sleep is now impossible, all that hovers around my depressing mind is Gray's reaction. It's hopeless to imagine how he'll exactly feel about this unwanted, and unexpected news. This only seems to happen to the people who do not want kids, and never to the ones who have been dreaming of having children their whole life. Kids have never been things on my bucket list, but I wouldn't mind having one, in the future.