Just Our Secret - Gruvia

Too close to be nostalgia

Wednesday afternoon. Our usual hangout spot, a bar across campus. I shared no classes with Gray that day, avoiding him was a breeze. Until now.

Lucy wanted to meet up and discuss Natsu's birthday plans, and the obvious, get a few drinks. None for me thanks.

The bar had a relaxing vibe, no drunken slobs causing fights and getting the rest of the crowds involved. I spotted the group instantly, Gajeel, a heavily tattooed and pierced man who was Levy's boyfriend, also my cousin, by the dart board. Loke, a ginger haired player trying to dodge the darts Gajeel was poorly throwing at the board. Cana, a brunette, curvy figure, huge brown eyes and also loves the drops of alcohol down her throat completely destroying Laxus at a game of poole. Laxus and I weren't close but he was good friends with Natsu and Gray. Finally, Lucy and Gray sitting at the bar together, both with a beer in hand. The heat in my body had arisen, just seeing him so chilled made me freak out. Soon he'll have the thought that he managed to get one of his best friends pregnant.

Since my body had completely frozen, Levy had to tug on my hand and drag me towards the two. Before we sit down in the barstools next to them, she whispers to me, "Hey, if the father is here right now don't worry about telling him right this second, but just try not to freak out around him and make it obvious because then you'll give it away." I nod as a reply, sitting in the seat next to the blonde step sister of the father of my child.

"Hey, Juv! You feeling alright now?" Lucy places her hand on my shoulder.

It was like I had the devil holding my tongue, the only reaction I had been giving all day was a nod. It was easier to lie then, I guess.

I avoided eye contact with Gray at all costs. I could tell he was trying to throw me a smile, yet of course I didn't reciprocate it as I was focusing on any other spot in the room, even just a ring of a glasses sweat.

"You two want anything? Beer? Glass of red?" She asks.

"No thanks, just going to say hi to Gajeel." Levy leaves me alone, which I have a mild panic about.

"Uh-um... just a water, please."

Lucy narrows her eyes in confusion, no matter the day and when offered I wouldn't refuse one drink. Like Cana, I enjoy my alcohol. But because I enjoy it, I have a certain fertilised egg. She accepts it, and orders the water for me.

"Agh, shoot. Natsu's calling me. I'll be back in a mo."

No! Now it's just Gray and I. I desperately wanted to tug on Lucy's shirt and sit her ass back down but she of course had to answer her boyfriend's call. Besides, this little meet up wasn't involving him because it was a horribly attempted surprise party which Natsu had most likely caught onto now. She heads out the back entrance to speak with her maniac out there and not draw attention to the sounds of glasses clinking and poole balls cracking.

"Sorry your date cancelled, they gonna make up for that?" Ah, word got around I see. Thirty seconds in and it's already like someone just grabbed me by the neck, forcing me to hold a decent conversation with the man I don't want to be in the same room with at all. There I was, alone with him.

My mum's advice was pretty straight forward, she warned me about the rough parts of pregnancy, possible regret of getting an abortion, and the biggest of all watching my baby getting taken away to live with someone else for the next eighteen years of their life. Adding to that, Gray's reaction. She cautioned me about how Gray could make it about himself, saying I ruined his life. How much my next decision will change his life. I was starting to believe that may be the case, yet my mind was erasing the thought of how selfless Gray was. Instinct probably, or I'm most likely just paranoid.