Just Our Secret - Gruvia

The finale of my insomnia

Frantic banging at my door at half six in the evening, Levy is out, I have no choice but to answer. By the tone in the knocking it was either Lucy or Natsu. Lucy either had some major gossip to spill, or Natsu ran out of beer.

I roll off the couch and pause my sitcom, and ended up opening the door to a frazzled blonde. Her eyes wider than what will soon be my stomach in nine months.

"Um... Juv, can I ask you a personal question?"

I open the door further, my face showing apprehension. She throws her bag over to the couch and the tension is quite clear once she turns back around. Her arms folded, her tooth visible as it nibbles at her bottom lip before she asks me, "Is Gray the father?"

I felt my stomach drop to the brim, also nausea building up in my throat. Nerves this time, not pregnancy. I did all that in the morning.

"H-How did you find out?" I didn't bother denying, after all she was going to find out someday.

My hands couldn't stay still, running through my hair and gliding over my face. Teeth chattering, constant stress and anxiety was squeezing me by the throat. I couldn't tell whether the look she was giving me was disappointment or sympathy, possibly both. She gently grabs my shoulders, sliding them up and down slightly as a form of relief. "The way he was talking about you kind of gave it away, he said about you wanting to tell him something but you'd prefer to do it after Natsu's party."

God... I'm such an idiot. Why did it never come to mind that he'd have just even a small conversation with her. I chose to say nothing more. Actually, less chose, more like someone had built a brick wall inside my voice box and no sound would emit. My hand slapped to my mouth, the other on my hip and still completely starstruck that she'd managed to figure it out. I was so close to dropping on my knees on the hardwood floor, until her hands gently caressed my porcelain cheeks, gliding down to my back and pulling me into a tight bear lock.

I reach for her shirt and nearly rip it as I tug with more dread, "You can't tell him." My voice makes a little crack as I am finally able to speak.

"I won't, but you have to keep your word about telling him after Natsu's party."

It was remarkably relieving as she didn't accuse me of being a whore, sleeping with a taken man, which I know many other people would do.

_ _ _

I made it clear to Lucy that after I told Gray, I'd then answer her questions. Her main one, what about Erza?

For some reason, Gray, who was her step-brother, still didn't know the real reason Gray and Erza were "involved" with each other. Gray's dad and Lucy's mum are married, and Gray's never has the audacity to keep his mouth zipped. So if he hads told Lucy's mum, Layla, surely Lucy would've been told this too.

The correct reason for why they're "together": money. Gray's mother was an incredibly wealthy businessperson. Erza's mother was one of her clients, and doesn't exactly legally live in the country. There's a a lot more to get into, I'd rather save the energy for when I have to explain it to her.

"Hi sweetie," I missed a call from my mum which luckily she left me a voicemail, "I'm just wondering if you're doing okay, and if you've made a decision yet. Whichever you decide, I'll be here to support you, love you."

I decided I'd call her back later, to be honest I'd rather tell her the "big news" in person. This pregnancy is going to kill me... Yet, they all say it's worth it in the end, I'll be the judge of that.

It took me over three hours to finally fall asleep that night. I'd spend the majority tossing and turning, having to go to the bathroom a lot, a large percentage of that was throwing up. I attempted multiple remedies to try and knock me out; honey in decaf tea, listening to somewhat relaxing music, doing so much research before spraying lavender oil on my pillows which I couldn't use anyway, and I even ended up taking a bath.