Just Our Secret - Gruvia

Falling behind while everyone else is ahead

"Hi sweetie, I'm glad you're okay and Gray was okay. You feel better now that it's off your chest?" 

Waking up after a small nap, my mother rang me back. Still half asleep, I had a talk with her about the upcoming stages of my life with this pregnancy. To be frank, it was already terrifying me.

"A little, Gray and I still have a lot to discuss, though." My voice a little croaky.

I catch a sigh from the other side, "Yes. Are you going to stay with Levy once it's here? Or are you going to see if you can get your own place? Oh! A good idea would be to move in with Gray." 

My eyes widened at her bold statement, "Mum!" I scold her, "I've barely thought about that, I will probably move out but I don't know if I'll live with Gray. He might not want me bombarding his space." I replied with a dismal tone. 

Gray may have a three bedroom apartment, but that doesn't necessarily mean he'll allow me to live with him. I wasn't even sure if I wanted to. I've witnessed, and experienced Gray in many different ways, being his roommate never occurred to me. 

I hear a door swiftly open and close, Levy must've returned. That means interrogation. 

"Look, mum, I'll talk to you later. Levy's back." I hung up and chucked my phone in the centre of my bed, standing up with brief confidence as I confront my detective. 

"I know what you're about to say," I cut off Levy as she takes a deep breath, preparing herself for the questions she had thought of over the night. Not even allowing her to fit a words in edgeways, I explain myself, "No, Gray is not the father." Her eyebrow raises, now puzzled as to what she saw the previous night, "He knows I'm pregnant, he was just driving me to the father's house." 

The fib that had just twisted my tongue, I had to beg she'd buy it. Her head titled, letting a moment to absorb the mislead, behind my back I had my fingers crossed. If I can narrow it down to only my mum, and Lucy knowing, it may make things just a tad easier. For now at least. I could be extremely wrong. 

"I'm still pretty convinced he is, Juvia. After what I saw at the party, you were so stiff around him. Then the two of you disappeared to most likely his place..." she pauses, eyeing me up and down for a brief moment, "and you're in the same clothes as yesterday, with the addition of a hoodie."

Probably would've been smarter to change. 

"Did you and Gray seriously have a one off thing? Or is it more than that?" 

I was already sick to my stomach with all these questions, I had Lucy's earlier, my mum kept texting and calling and a new addition was the father himself. 

"Levy," I start, taking a deep breath, "I don't want all the questions right now. Yeah... Gray and I had a one off thing. It's complicated to explain,"

Again, recalling the night. That night we shared hadn't left my mind since. I thought about it everyday. Our rough and messy sex gradually became passionate, love making? My relationship with Gray at this point is the most confusing yet exciting thing I've ever experienced. Our sex was fantastic, doing it like pros the first time round together. I needed to know what last night meant to him. Lust or love? That question hadn't escaped my mind, not even when I took a nap. Gray may just love me as his close friend, and want my body to replace the lack of pleasure he had been receiving, or perhaps his feelings expand further. 

"For now can you please be a little considerate and not mention anything to Gajeel? Or anyone for that matter. If Gajeel finds out he'll beat Gray up. Remember? He made it clear when he met Gray that if he laid his hands on me, he'd regret it till the day he died."