Just Our Secret - Gruvia

Letting cats out of the bag

Driving me to my apartment, Gray and I coudn't keep our eyes off each other. I had no idea how joyous I'd be after hearing Gray wanted to keep the baby. I was still stumped before he said that. But now I'm sure. I want to do this with him. Truthfully, I almost kissed him when he confessed. Out of excitement, of course. 

We were so psyched about this that our troublesome thoughts had temporarily vanished. They'd catch up with us eventually. My father and his mother still aren't aware, they're just a few of the people who will go insane over this. In his perspective, Levy and Lucy are not aware either.

Levy wasn't home, which relieved me. Gray and I could have some alone time and discuss things, or just catch up.  

Left on the list to tell, my father, Gray's mother, and Gajeel. I feared Gajeel's reaction mainly because of how he met Gray. He was not pleased to meet him. Long story short, Gray was hammered at a party, I had just broken up with my boyfriend, so we made moves on each other, Gray's more consistent than mine. If Gajeel didn't walk in, I'd probably have a two year old by now. Back then, Gray was actually in a relationship. That's why Gajeel is iffy with him. I'd only met Gray about a week before, I instantly found him attractive and may have had a small crush on him. But of course, learning he was in a relationship put me off. It hasn't changed. Well, I think so?

"So, when did you find out?" 

The two of us sitting on the couch, me sipping some water and he having black coffee. 

He wasn't going to appreciate how long I kept it from him, "Well, I'd had symptoms for a couple of weeks, but I kept denying it. I had this metallic taste in my mouth, and the next day I was throwing up. I finally took the test last Sunday when I realised I missed my period," 

The time I found out the truth. It was getting towards nine thirty at night, I'd returned from the bar after doing some planning for Natsu's surprise party with everyone. Gray was there that night. We were speaking more that night. After more than five weeks of being iffy and stiff around one another, we were finally getting back on track. I didn't drink that night, alcohol was making me feel sick. Gajeel whiffed a shot right under my nose, which drove me out of the bar. The nausea was killing me, I needed to fall on the floor just sleep. I was so exhausted, and so sick, Levy finally took me home. 

I thought I must've gotten my period if I felt so strange. After checking, nothing was there. I had a tracker app, and I never noticed I was late for two weeks. That was when it came to me; the taste in my mouth, nausea, missed period and maybe my breasts had become swollen? At first, I was stumped. Why was my body being so peculiar? During those few minutes of thinking, I'd missed the fact I'd had sex a few weeks prior to that night. Sex too many times in one night. Besides, condoms aren't one hundred percent effective. That was the only form of contraceptive we used. 

I wanted to get it out of the way. Find out I was negative as soon as I finished the puzzle. But, being so weary, I ended up collapsing in my bed and sleeping until late morning. Being awoken by the sudden slap of sickness, I realised it was time to take the test. 

I went down to the closest convenience store and bought a rather cheap test. I impatiently zoomed around my bathroom as I waited for a few minutes for the test result. I kept repeating in my head: it's negative. No way could I actually be pregnant. Then the simple plus sign changed everything. 

In thirty three weeks, perhaps more or less, I'm actually going to have a baby. With someone I'm not married to, or in a relationship with. Depending on how it goes, and how we'll handle it, maybe that status will change? I guess I'll see...

"At first I was scared shitless. It took me longer than I thought it would to tell you because I didn't even know if I wanted to go through with it... and I kept having nightmares."