Twisted

Chapter Fourty-One: Finally dating

Chapter Forty-One: finally dating
Callum's POV

Josh stared at me with narrowed eyes and I swear on my fucking life I could've turned away and thrown up right then and there.

I mean it's one thing to kiss your best friend all the time but it's fucking insane to ask them out after 17 years of absolutely nothing but friendship and then one year of quick pecks and weird moments.

We just kinda sat there in silence for a minute before I decided I couldn't take it.

"Josh." I said my tone almost warning.

"Yes?" He asked, his face a bright tomato red.

"If you don't say anything soon I'm going to vomit."

The mention of me spewing out all of the damn food we ate snapped him out of his daze and he blinked a few times.

"Uh, What was the question again?"

Oh my fucking god. I thought, absolutely embarrassed.

I mean I've been in relationships before but they were never serious, ya know? It was the casual girl telling her friend that 'we talk' and people assume you're dating. I've never had anything with a serious label on it. I've never had to ask someone that's seen me fall off of my fucking roof if they'll go out with me.

That's another kind of embarrassment.

I groaned and rubbed my face with my hands. "I asked if you'll go out with me. Like as my boyfriend."

Josh coughed a few times before laughing, "Uh, why?"

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I swear to god he's gonna be the fucking death with me. What does he mean 'why'?

He must've realized how he was sounding because his eyes widened and he shook his head. "Not like 'why should I date you' but like, why me? I mean you're all... hot as hell, and I look like a burnt piece of toast, ya know? I'm just shocked like, there's so many other people out there and-"

I made a face at him and his stupid rambling. "Okay you wanna know why?" I adjusted in my seat and turned completely towards him. "First of all, Ive known you for seventeen years. I know that you're terrified of moths, I know that your favorite color is green and that you love to watch the sunrise especially if it's foggy outside, but you don't want to wake up to actually see it. Second of all, you've been there with me through everything. And I mean everything Josh

"Like all the times I went to the hospital, or when I got in a fight at school and you stood up for me, or when I had an awful night with my parents, when my sister went missing. Thirdly, you're so amazingly important to me Josh. Like sometimes I look at you and it's like, I want to fucking punch you in the nose because then I'd have something to comfort you about like you comfort me."

At that he laughed and I saw a glimmer in his eyes. I didn't care if this moment was cliche and gross. I didn't care if I cringed about this for the rest of my goddamn life. I didn't care if I woke up one morning and wished I couldn't done this somewhere better than in my fucking truck.

"Fourthly Josh, you accept me and you forgive me. I mean, I can name so many times when I lost my temper, whether with you or somebody else but you didn't call me an asshole or a fuck up like my parents did. Instead you just let me calm down, and breathe and when I was calm you never looked at me different, you always just looked at me like I was your best friend and that hasn't changed once for the past seventeen years.