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Decode┊Nozel Silva

❛ NOZEL SILVA ❜
"How did we get here, when I used to know you so well?"

NOZEL'S POINT OF VIEW

I'm very careful. I never done so many mistakes in my life, especially on this part. But why?

I did my best. I know I did my best. If I didn't, I tried. Believe me.

I fought this desire my whole life just to hide my identity, just for Y/N's sake. I don't want to hurt anyone, I don't want to hurt the most special person in my whole life. She accepted me. She loved me. No lies ever escaped her mouth every time she'll talk about how much she wanted to grow old with me.

I tried to hide everything from her.

Is this a payback? Is this what I'm going to pay her back?!

I'm horrible. I'm very horrible. I'm not a human. Or maybe, I'm really not a human since the first.

I closed my eyes as I tried to remember how it ended up like this.

It was a fair Sunday.

A day-off for me and my squad and a perfect time to spend with my beloved wife. I knew from the very start of the day, there's something wrong with her. Or maybe, she's just getting a little too clingy. No, very clingy. Yet I didn't mind her, it was just her nature to be this giggly.

"I'm going to cook curry today," she cheered. "Mind helping me?"

God, she's so beautiful.

I nodded. "Of course."

"Great, great, great! Come on, follow me!"

She started walking to the kitchen as I obeyed her request. She grabbed the ingredients out of the fridge and cabinet as I watched her every move before mindlessly licking my lips.

"I bought this yesterday because I was so bored. I bought you two new pajamas, check it out on your cabinet."

I hummed. "Color?"

"Blue," She looked at me. "It's obvious. Everything you wear is blue."

I smiled. She really knew me, inside and out and my heart can't help but skip a beat every time she will look and smile at me. Every time.

She set the vegetables on the table before she told me to boil some water. I nodded as I grabbed the kettle, pouring water into it. I heard she's talking about how cute those other pajamas on the shop she went in. There were different colors: red, yellow, green, black and more.

"Ow!" She suddenly exclaimed, interrupting her story.

I dropped the kettle on my hands as I hurried to her side. She cut her finger and blood is gushing from it.

Oh, God.

My heart hammered faster than before and my mind went blank.

Blood. Fucking blood. I licked my lips unconsciously and I knew Y/N saw it.

"Lick it," She commanded. I looked at her with a hint of hesitation. Is she for real?!

Decline, Nozel. Fucking shit.

My hands are shaking as hell as I bring her bleeding finger on my mouth. Closing my eyes, I sipped the blood. I fucking sipped it. No, I fucking drank it.