The Boy Who Won't Talk - TsukkiYama

𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗲𝗻 🙊

Yamaguchi slowly open his eyes, blinking a few times to get use to the light. Feeling confused, he look at his surrounding. He was lying on a bed, in the nurse office. How did I get here? He asked himself as he slowly sit up, feeling a sudden pain in his head. He wince and suddenly flinch when there was a sudden voice appear,

"Careful, you should lie down more. It will ease your headache abit" he slowly looked beside him to see a girl with short black hair.

"Are you okay..?" She asked in concern. Yama was confused and just nod. Not knowing why there was someone except tsukishima and his other two friends are helping him. He tap his pocket, feeling no sign of notebook and pen. The girl watch him and realised what he was searching, she took out his notebook,

"You searching for this right?" Yama looked at it and nod. She gave it to him and wait for him to write,

" are you the one who help me? " the girl nod,

" I saw you fainted after you puke. I immediately call for help and here you are. The nurse when to the principal office by the way incase you were wondering " yamaguchi was shocked and immediately write,

" I puke ?! " she read and let out a small giggle.

"Yah but don't worry. The cleaner clean up before the student comes in and see" yamaguchi felt relieve after hearing that.

" you.. Skip class for me? " the girl smile and nod,

"I prefer being here with you then the boring class" yamaguchi give her a small smile and fidget his hands. He was suddenly feeling shy. He was not best at being around with a girl. It was his first time.

"Do you remember what happened?" She suddenly asked, yama refresh back his memory and felt his heart being shot. Thats right.. tsukki left...

The girl watch his expression and sigh, "I.. Um.. You know.. I saw what happened with you and tsukishima" yamaguchi quickly looked at her in fright, she quickly calm him down by saying,

"Don't worry! Its fine! I won't tell anyone about you and him! Im sorry if I were eavesdropping but if I weren't there, everyone will be seeing you in that state..." Yamaguchi looked down, she was actually right. If she wasn't there, people will see him lying on the dirty ground with puke around. He looked at his clothing, seeing himself with a plain white t-shirt and the same pants he were wearing.

"I put your clothes in a plastic bag. Don't worry"

" Thank you " she smile,

"You know... You're actually not bad.. You're not that weird as to what people has said about you... " yamaguchi blush, looking away.

"My name is Yua, Yua Yaiba. Nice to meet you! Can we be friends?" Yamagachi eyes turn wide and nod hesitantly,

"yamaguchi tadashi " she smile and nod,

"I know" Yamaguchi smile, feeling abit happy for having a new friend and sad at the same time cause of tsukki. He shouldn't had say that to him. Tsukishima deserve to know, he has been there for him. Giving the attention and love he wants, it was selfish of him for not giving him back. He will make sure to forgive in text tonight.

🙊

Yamaguchi silently cried as he stared at his phone screen. He send a text to tsukishima, saying how much he is sorry and guilty, how much he missed him but all he was given in return was just a seen.

Tsukki

Tsukki

Im sry about wht happened tdy

I dont know what had come over me

Im really sry of what I have said. I shouldn't have said tht to u. Im just scared ok? Im scared you'll leave me and hate me if I told u the truth... Thats why I shut you off...

Im really sry ... You can be angry with me.. but please still be my friend...
(Seen)

Pls say something tsukki..

Im really sry
(Seen)

Im sry Im a bad friend to you and a boyfriend
(Seen)

Im sry tht you have to meet someone like me
(Seen)

Yamaguchi cried and cried. Hating himself. Hating himself for existing. Hating that tsukishima have to be friends with someone like him. Dating someone like him. He hate it. They were right. Those bullies were right. Why would tsukishima hangout with someone as weak and stupid like him? He stood up and take out a razor hidden in his drawer. He stare at it for awhile and bought the razor near his wrist,

Do it

Cut it and you will feel better

Trust me

No one likes you

No one

Tsukishima left you

He doesn't want to talk to you anymore too

So whts the point now?

Do it

Just one slice

And he did, he drag the razor deeper across his wrist. Feeling blood coming out and rolling down to his elbows. He felt nothing. No pain no anything. He was done with life.

More

He listened to the voice as he do it twice, thrice and more. He slice and slice, watching alot of blood coming out. His vision blured but he doesn't care. He kept doing and doing.

Yama baby…

His eyes turn wide and immediately stop,

Im sorry you have to live this kind of life. Im sorry I can't protect you enough. Im sorry your dad hate us, especially you. Im sorry you have to go through this...

Yamaguchi slowly pull the razor away from the wrist, Eyes remain wide as he remember the sudden flashback.

But pls remember that Im not sry for having you. I love you my son. My baby yama... pls know Im always here for you in your heart. Mama is here... shh... *cough* Don't cry my baby..

Yamaguchi immediately throw the razor far away from him and cover his wrist, trying to stop the blood. He lay down on the ground and cried. Cried that he actually done it again. "M-mom..." He call her out. Wishing she was here infront of him. Hugging him. Kissing him in the cheeks. Wrapping him up like a burrito, singing him lullaby with that soft and calm soothing voice of hers and stayed with him till he was asleep. Like that time when he was young. "I really want to be with you.... Why do you leave me...? " He take his phone and look at the wallpaper. "I miss you... I fcking miss you mom... Please... *sniff* I love you.. " His vision started to be blurry again. Guessing that he lost alot of blood, he remain still. He close his eyes, don't know whether he is going to die or not. He whisper as the last tear rolled down his cheek,

"Please save me tsukki... " , and everything went black.