DEPRESSION | vmin

four

𝙠.𝙩𝙝 𝙥𝙤𝙫

another day of school... I didn't wanna go there but at the same time I didn't want to stay at home either, all I wanted was to stay with chimmy.

But I can't be at his place all the time, he will think that something is going on at home. I don't want him to worry about me, I'm fine.

I haven't eaten in a while, it's been like maybe 5 days? I forgot... lately I have been having no energy to do nothing.

But I drink coffee so I can have more energy, I dont want chimmy to know anything... I don't want him to leave me. I don't like being alone, I hear the door knob twist from my door.

I start trembling... it's my older step brother, "What the fuck? what did you lock your door?! I told you to not lock your door! OPEN THE DOOR!" he says twisting my door knob and knocking on my door.

No... I don't want to be beaten up again, I forgot about not locking my door. I'm so stupid... so STUPID.

I tremble in fear while hugging my knees towards my chest, i want this to end I want it to end... I hear my older step brother open the door he must of broke the door knob.

He lifts me up from the ground by choking me, I struggle to get his hands off of my neck, I kick my legs in the air struggling to breathe.

"What did I say about locking doors? Hm? You already know what I'm gonna do to you" my older step brother says as he pushes me against the wall still choking me in the air.

"let me put you out of your misery hm?" my older step brother says as he proceeds to beat me... I feel pain every where.

It hurts... IT HURTS EVERYWHERE

MAKE IT STOP!!

PLEASE!!!! MAKE IT S-STOP!!!

C-CHIMMY HELP ME!

I see chimmy came into my room, he's hear to save me... I saw a light of hope. But he just stayed there and watched me die, I look into his eyes... and smiled at me.

"die faggot your annoying piece of shit, o never liked you from the beginning"

No no... this isn't real... this can't be real.

CHIMMY! H-HELP P—PLEASE D-DONT L-LEAVE ME!!

I get hit with one more punch and I get knocked out on the floor.

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𝙥.𝙟𝙢 𝙥𝙤𝙫

I text taebear to tell him that I'm coming over to pick him up, I wait over five minutes for his response. That's strange... he would always text me right away, something is wrong or I might just be overreacting a bit.

I'll just pick him up, as I drive my way down to his house I hear a loud notification sound coming from my phone, it read.

"okay! I'm waiting outside my house"

Suddenly all my worries went away, I knew it was overreacting over nothing. I pull up to tae's house and see him smiling as always, he didn't seem... right it looked like he was forcing a smile today.

"Hey chimmy!! Are you ready??" Taebear asks me getting in the passenger seat, "yup and are you ready?" I ask him, "yuppers!!" taebear says in excitement.

God he's so cute...

I just wanna kiss him... I have had a crush on tae for the longest time like two years, I'm scared he might not feel the same and I'm scared to lose our friendship, so I'm keeping it a secret for now.

I take a peek towards taebear and I notice that his eyes were kinda puffy and he looked tired... he hasn't been sleeping much... it looked like he was crying seconds ago.

"taebear can I come over to your house after school today?" I ask him, I see his reaction and see that he looked kinda scared and worried a bit. He hesitates to answer but answers with "but I like your house better chimmy!! plus your parents aren't home when we get out of school so we are both alone to do anything" taebear says looking outside the window.

why is making excuses?...

"but I wanna see your house from the inside though, please? I never been in your house taebear" I beg him.

I notice him bite on his lip thinking on what to say, something must be going on at home that he doesn't wanna bring me there.

"o-okay fine after school you can c-come to my house but we aren't staying for to long chimmy! Promise?" Taebear asks me waiting for my response.

maybe I'm wrong... why would he let me in his house if something was going on at home, I must be overreacting and worrying for no reason. But there must be something going on, I have a gut feeling about it.

"chimmy? are you okay? you didn't answer my question" taebear says starting to worry about me.

"yeah sorryI was thinking about something and yes I promise taebear" I say as we make it to school.

"okie!! let's go we don't wanna be late!" taebear says getting out of the car excited going into school.

I laugh towards his actions, he's so cute...