DEPRESSION | vmin

five

𝙠.𝙩𝙝 𝙥𝙤𝙫

I was really worried... I hope my older brother isn't there, as chimmy parks his car in the drive way. I feel my hands get sweaty, im scared... scared that my brother is there... scared that chimmy will find out everything.

damn it I should have said no I'm such a idiot!!

"taebear you ready?" chimmy says hopping out of his car "yup!!" I hop out of the car to and walk up to the front door, I take a deep breath in and out.

taehyung calm down he will only be over for an hour and leave.

we head inside my house, I spent this whole week to clean the house for chimmy because he has such a nice clean house I would feel like he would be disappointed on where I live. I don't want him to worry about me, "wow your house is really pretty taebear" chimmy says admiring the inside.

"thanks chimmy!! wanna go up to my room?" I say cheerfully checking secretly if my older brother is around here, "okay and who is that?" chimmy asks looking at the kitchen.

my heart sinks to my stomach.

I look in the kitchen and see my older brother there, he notices us and I start to panic I tremble in fear knowing I will get beat from him after chimmy leaves or right now...

damn it, damn it, DAMN IT!!

I should have said no

what is wrong with me?

IM A STUPID BABY! MY BROTHER IS RIGHT ABOUT ME...

I see my older brother walking towards us near the front door.

NO NO PLEASE...

i shouldn't have done this

im such a idiot!!

"hi you must be taehyungs friend im kim jeong-ho his older brother" my older brother says introducing himself.

what? why is he being... nice?

"ahh nice to meet you i never knew tae had an older brother, im park jimin" chimmy says introducing himself too, "wait really? aww tae you haven't told your friend about me?" jeong says ruffling my hair.

I flinch at his actions towards me and chimmy notices this "tae are you okay?" chimmy asks in concern, "its fine he hates me touching his hair" jeong says giving me a dirty look.

he was putting an act...

I'm dead when chimmy leaves...

"well I just wanted to welcome and meet you, have fun you two" jeong says smiling going back to the kitchen doing whatever he was doing in there.

"let's get going into my room jiminie!!" saying trying to cheer myself up, we walk upstairs into my room "woah! it looks like a 5 year old girls room" jimin says laughing at what he said.

I chuckle at chimmys response "thanks chimchim! you know I like girly things so what do you wanna do???" I say jumping on top of my bed "I wanna go get ice cream" chimmy says jumping on my bed laying upside down.

"okie dokie! let's go get your ice cream" I say grabbing chimmys hand heading out to the ice cream place, it was pretty chilly out and I forgot to bring a jacket but it was never the less pretty outside.

there was a comfortable silence between us as we were walking towards the ice cream shop, I look up at chimmy and admire at his face im lucky to even be friends with him.

he looks like a angel with no wings, chimmy looks at me and I quickly look away blushing, got caught I hope my ears don't give it away because as I blush my ears have a pink tint to it.

I hear chimmy chuckle out of curiosity I ask him why he's laughing "because I caught you staring at me" chimmy says chuckling again "w-what uh w-well i-it's y-your fault t-that your h-hot I MEAN what im trying t-to say-

"OH MY GOSH YOU CALLED ME HOT!? first time i ever heard you complement me like that haha, look at you blushing that's cute" chimmy says looking at my red face "u-uhhh yeah your w-welcome" I say chuckling nervously scratching my neck.

taehyung wtf are you doing? stop being obvious

we walk together in silence until someone bumps into chimmy by accident "ahh im so sorry!" the guy says getting off of chimmy and helping him get up "no no its okay" chimmy says but this guy looks at him in his eyes.

I feel a ocean of jealousy swarm inside of me "what's your name? sorry for randomly asking but you live around here right?" the guy asks still looking into jimins eyes.

"oh uh yeah i do live around here and im jimin" jimin says sounding like he doesn't wanna talk to the man, I wanted to grab jimins hand and walk away from the man but i couldn't do that or jimin will be more suspicious on my feelings toward him.

I feel my tears forming in my eyes my lip trembles in sadness, I wanna be like that towards him but I don't have the confidence to do it because I'm ugly, stupid, a cry baby, a disappointment, worthless and the list goes on.

"ah okay im jungkook we go to the same school!" jungkook says cheerfully, if only I was cheerful as him "ohh okay well im going to the ice cream shot with my friend so see you around" chimmy says bringing me into his brace and walking off.

I blush at his actions towards me and soon my jealousy washes away "I guess he saw my hotness but that's only for you~" jimin says pinching my cheek, I blush so hard I wish I could date him but I know he doesn't like me back he's just flirting for fun.

chimmy notices me tears and I quickly wipe them off "taebear why are you crying come here" he brings me into his brace I place my head on his chest smelling his sweet yet strong cologne he had on, hearing his heartbeat made me so relaxed.

"It's nothing chimmy really! I'll buy you your mint chocolate chip ice cream my treat for making you worried!" I say looking up at him still laying my head on his chest.

"are you sure taebear?" chimmy asks still concerned "yes I'm sure nos lets get you that mint chocolate chip ice cream!!" I

"ill buy you your mint chocolate chip ice cream my treat!" I tell chimmy racing him towards the ice cream place "NOT IF I GET THERE FIRST!" chimmy shouts from the distant catching up with me.

I never want this day to end.