DEPRESSION | vmin

eleven

𝙠.𝙩𝙝 𝙥𝙤𝙫

I slowly open my eyes seeing that I'm in bed, as I try to get up I feel my butt hurt badly, I immediately lay back down not trying to move. the pain was unbearable, then I remembered... me and jeong had s-sex.

Why did I give in?! I'm so stupid I had my first time with my step brother the one that insulted me, the one that made me cry, made me feel pain, made me feel useless.

"taebear did you sleep well?" jeong says coming in the room, I check that I was still naked under the covers seeing my cuts and bruises all over my body, I felt disgusting him seeing me like that. I blush out of embarrassment covering myself from jeong, "baby don't cover your beautiful body from me" jeong makes his way towards me and I flinch.

"s-stop p-please don't I'm s-sorry I-I'll leave your room!" I tremble in fear forgetting to never ever be in jeong's room without his permission, tears roll down my cheek.

jeong looked at me with guilt and sadness on his face, "tae I'm not gonna hurt you... I-Im sorry i didn't mean to hurt you all these years" jeong says with tears in his eyes, he looked so guilty.

"W-why did you d-do it?! it's all your f-fault I'm like this now *sob* I'm a d-disgusting f-faggot im useless! It's all my f-fault that my m-mother d-

I felt a pair of lips kiss me passionately, I close my eyes as more tears threaten to spill as I melt into the sweet kiss, feeling his tongue enter my mouth. It wasn't full of lust but full of... love.

jeong breaks the kiss and looks at me in the eyes, he was crying... I have never seen him cry in my life. "I-I'm s-so sorry tae can I be honest with you on why I did it?..." I was curious yet scared on knowing why he made me like this all these years, "b-but you s-said t-the reason was because it was my f-fault that your s-step mother d-died" I stutter completely through the whole sentence still scared of him.

"That wasn't the real reason tae... the real reason was because I was jealous" jeong admits admires at my face to see my reaction, I was confused. "jealous of w-what?" jeong looked pissed off now, I start to get scared that he might hit me.

"I was jealous of all of your crushes... fuck how I wanted to beat them up, the way they looked at you and touched you made me jealous you always got heart broken by every single one of them. I wanted to beat them up so badly but instead of doing that... I took all of my anger and jealousy at you instead, I knew it was wrong but I couldn't control myself, I hated doing this to you but I-I couldn't stop. I just... i didn't want those bastards touching you the thought of them close to you made me angry, tae I love you so much I don't want anyone touching you... especially that bastard jimin! he always drives you to school, holded you by the hand, by the waist, hugging you and even hang out at his house everyday. you even slept the night at his house, fuck I hate it!".

jeong pins me on the bed, I gulp nervously at his actions towards me. "I hate it when he is close to you, your mine" jeong whispers in my ear and starts making my way towards my neck leaving sweet passionate kisses all over my neck.

I bite my lip trying not to release any moans, "don't hide those pretty little moans of yours, I wanna hear you sing~" jeong says smirking at my now red face.
jeong continues kissing my neck and makes his way near my collarbone leaving a hickey on there.

I release a small moan as he leaves a mark on me, until we hear a loud knock on the door. jeong stops and gets off of me, I felt... sad but why though? It's not like I like him.

"let me go check who it is stay here baby" jeong says making his way out the room, I forget that I was naked this whole time so I quickly put on my boxers and put on a outfit I haven't tried on in a long time.

So jeong did care about me, but he likes me more then a friend and brother... I-I don't know how I even feel about him. It's gonna take me some time to get use to his presence around me not beating me or insulting me everyday of my life, but I can give him a second chance right?

then I hear a voice that sounded familiar that caught my ears...

I looked out the window and saw jimin...

I blush at the outfit he had on, it looked so hot on him... what am I thinking like this? I should go down.

to be continued...